[bluewave7]

Went in Friday and got out today. Needed a medication adjustment due to psychosis and mixed state. I also felt like I was going to internally combust or fragment into a million pieces. I have been feeling the earth rise up and down under my feet and seeing blue ripples in the sky.

I was triggered by an email my Mom sent. Not to get into all of it...but I have lost my Mother, and not to death. She is very abusive to me and I am detaching and accepting this relationship but it hit me hard on Friday. Reality set in and I was grieving.

I stayed in the temporary psychiatric unit as no beds were available for women in the regular unit. I tried to leave several times because I didn't want to be there. But I waited for the Pdoc at the strong suggestion from the nurses. He upped my meds and I feel great now. Even a little hypo. Imagine that! I haven't been hypo since my last manic episode in Feb of this year.

So I was only there three days and I began to accept that I was there for a reason and just to be patient and rest. To let go and accept my Mother was the topic of conversation with my therapist who was at the hospital one day I was there.

I hope I don't have to go back to the psyche ward again. This is 7 hospitalizations. I think my meds are finally straightened out and yes they upped my Lamictal and Geodon. I was worried about liver damage as I'm on 300 Lamictal and 180 geodon. My therapist told me to take an herbal supplement called milk thistle which detoxifies the liver but she said only if I was worried about it.

Sorry to go on so long but I have a lot of energy and I missed you guys while I was gone!

[sugahorse1]

Glad to hear you are back and feeling better

[Darth Bane]

you sound happy and normal

[comicgeek007]

I have a similar situation with my mother and also get triggered by emails she sends to harass me. Glad to hear you're doing better.

[faerie_moon_x]

I hope everything stays stable for you this time. I'm glad you went in when you needed it, though. Better to be there 3 days to get better than be there much longer because you waited.

[BlueInanna]

Good to hear you got some help and feeling better. So... Seeing blue ripples in the sky is... Not normal? But they're there. Others don't see them?

[Warrioress]

Sorry about your mother. My best friend has an abusive mother and I can see how she suffers all the time

Glad you're stable now. Do take care of your liver

[catsrhelm]

Sorry about your mother, because I know how you feel.
Just take everything one day at a time. I too have been working my tail off to stay out of hospitals/pscyhe wards. Mind you I have only been twice, but still I was in there for three weeks at a time.

[bipolarLady7]

I will pray that your recovery goes well and that if your mother doesn't get better, you will at least not let her hurt you so much. Much easier said than done I'm sure. I've been in the hospital 10+ times and the last two (last year) were a month each time. So I'm glad to hear that you were in for a lot less than I was.

I'm glad you're back, Blue, too. And especially glad that the medication tweak brought
you back to your best feeling tone. That's what it's all for, isn't it?

I was interested that your psychiatrist told you to take milk thistle. The lemon will
do the same thing for you. (See "The Lemon Thing And Why It Works for Some" on
page 2 of the Depression forum, I think.)

Take care of yourself and don't worry about your mother. I had one, too, and know
how the foolishness affects us. We're not the people they think we are, though, so know
that you've got it all together beautifully on your own.

Nobody needs that. We paid our dues when we were children; now it's time to be a good parent to our child within.

[Moose72]

I've felt the ground moving under me rather recently. I didn't know it was a symptom.

[Anneinside]

Originally Posted by genetic

I'm glad you're back, Blue, too. And especially glad that the medication tweak brought
you back to your best feeling tone. That's what it's all for, isn't it?

I was interested that your psychiatrist told you to take milk thistle. The lemon will
do the same thing for you. (See "The Lemon Thing And Why It Works for Some" on
page 2 of the Depression forum, I think.)

Take care of yourself and don't worry about your mother. I had one, too, and know
how the foolishness affects us. We're not the people they think we are, though, so know
that you've got it all together beautifully on your own.

Nobody needs that. We paid our dues when we were children; now it's time to be a good parent to our child within.

It was her therapist who told her to take it.