Do you always jump to the worst possible conclusion?

My husband tells me I keep a "jump to conclusions" mat in my purse.

Our two year old takes a nap that's a little to long and I thing she's taken apart her bottle and choked on the top and died without me realizing it. My badge at work gets faulty and the door won't open so I think I've been fired. My husband runs to store and is gone 5 minutes longer than I'm expecting and I think he's doing something fishy.

I could go on... but you get the idea. Does anyone else do this?

Nessa I do feel that way a lot. All the crazy, uncensored thoughts that rip through my mind. Things that make me scared and others that make me ashamed. Sometimes it is so hard to talk myself down and not let the thought overtake me. It has gotten better with my meds, but I still have a major panic button.

Wish I could offer words of wisdom, but at least you know you are not alone.

Nessa I have a huge history of this behavior.. The only thing that has helped is "self grounding"

If I feel myself heading down the road of hell . I mentally have to Stop and just send my mind in a total opposite direction.

Husband 5 mins late? I think .. Okay he is helping someone reach for a item on the top shelf, or is actually reading a label on a food item

I actively have to re direct myself. If I start heading down a road of negative assumptions. I just stop , self ground and try distraction.

It is so hard to break a habit like this, I still struggle.

Yes, when I'm depressed a lot and that has been the case for me lately or specifically when my stress level is high. I was that way before, and I hate to keep bringing it up but 30 yrs living with a BPD will add to that hence my dx of PTSD. From everything I've read bp's are very sensitive any way. But when manic or hypo they could care less what anyone thinks. I also have paranoid personality disorder, do to being told I never did anything right for so long. You can ask yourself if you have ever been emtiionally abused and if so along with the bp it just make's it that much harder. I have what the pdoc's consider so many Co Morbid disorders sometimes I feel as if I don't have a chance at a life I used to have. I can certianally relate to what you posted.

No doubt! I totally do this and until recently i thought it was normal. UGH! at least I know it is not now and that gives me hope that there is something I can do to improve my thinking. Today's examples of this thinking are: I hear a ambulance go by and imagine the worst if a family member is gone and a friend says they have something scheduled for a night we were suppose to hang out and i think that means they don't like me. Also, someone at the end-of-season baseball party (little league) didn't return a "hello" when I said "hi" and I thought they musn't like me. The list could go on but I thought I would just give you today's moments, lol. So, YES, I think that way too. I am trying something called Dialectical Behavior Therapy and hope that will give me some creative ways to get around my paranoid thinking patterns. I hope you find what helps you too.

Maybe not the worst but often pretty bad.