Todays Plan !

~Christina · Jun 15, 2013, 05:56 PM

Yes there is a Plan indeed !

Pain is at a a 10
Too much noise in my head
Too many voices , same ole same ole
Too many hallucinations , they are boring me today, unimaginative
The urge to rush around like a mad woman is very strong.
Of course that will increase the pain, Screw the pain !

So I am self medicating with Peach schnapps, brownies , pasta and not a single psych med at all !

Go ahead and scold me for being a bad Bipolar Person. Because all the things I am going to stuff into myself today is ohhhh so much worse than a bucketful of chemicals formed into easy to swallow pills.

Faraway tree · Jun 15, 2013, 06:00 PM

No one can be a good "compliant" bipolar reason every day, sounds like you need a day off.

Peach schnapps and brownies sound yum

dubblemonkey · Jun 15, 2013, 06:13 PM

Christina...you know I love you right!

...I will try compensate for the hallucinations!

"I love you my friend more than I understand I got!"

....

Chrissy baby ...negativity is an illusion!

it's a damn lie!

I know the pain is very real and lady honey I am so sorry about that!

there is no pressure to be any more lovely than you already are...
I don't have any answers but I adore you.

it's ok to make your own real..

~Christina · Jun 15, 2013, 06:15 PM

James you make smile despite the pain, I love you bunches

Nessa213 · Jun 15, 2013, 06:20 PM

Far be it for me, with that entire bottle of wine I downed last Sunday, to pass any judgements on the delicious sounding peach schnapps you are enjoying!

Trippin2.0 · Jun 15, 2013, 08:10 PM

No judgement here either, my spine has been in attack mode from Saturday to Saturday, well its 3am now so its actually Sunday. Zero reprieve inbetween, so my diet this week has been consisting mainly of a Ibuprofen, Tyelonol, Codeine and Melatonin mix....

Today I wished I had access to opium or actually anythingto kill it... Really honestly considered calling someone who "knows someone" who can help me out, which wouldn't be hard considering where I live

Ugh, sorry Chris, didn't mean to make it about me, its ok to be a "bad bipolar" , I'm pretty sure it comes with the territory sis, besides, you really need a day off!

~Christina · Jun 15, 2013, 08:17 PM

Trippin !

Oh I so despise your spine and it's tempermental actions

. I am about to know someone who knows someone also, I think it's a good idea in general !

I am on shot # 5 and I will say pain has dropped to a 7 ! Hooray

I am not drunk , yet

.... So my plan is indeed working

# 6 coming up will be just for you my friend

I hope that relief finds you soon

roads · Jun 15, 2013, 08:46 PM

((((((( Christina & Trippin

))))))) NotFairNotFairNotFairNotFair!!

I'm not functioning all that well myself from pain--have been trying to find a back-up acupuncturist & not successful, so quite miserable.

I'll take both of you with me to my acupuncture treatments Monday, Tuesday, & Thursday. I'm going back to my beloved & miraculous Dr Ku, and I'll do my best to send healing waves on to you both.

Bunches of love and a share of tears.
Roadie

Trippin2.0 · Jun 15, 2013, 08:53 PM

Thank you ladies

Schnapps and accupuncture are definitly most welcome!!!

Roadie, I was actually talking about that yesterday, I wanna do some research and if there's hope for my spine, try some accupuncture. I had it done once, yearrrrs (10) ago for chronic kidney infections, and the infections have never returned, so I'm thinking its worth looking into... Gosh I hope it helps me.

Christina, so glad you're at a 7 thats a definite improvement

Hope you reach 6 soon

Love you both!!!!

bluemountains · Jun 15, 2013, 09:33 PM

Christina and Trippin'
I am so sorry for the pain each of you suffer! Go ahead and do what ever you need to find relief, no judgement here. Physical pain on top of mental pain, so much to deal with, it just isn't fair! I'm rooting for both of you-you are two strong women!

Bluemountains

Victoria'smom · Jun 15, 2013, 11:34 PM

I really hope you can drowned your pain completely away with Peach schnapps, brownies, & pasta. There's no criticism coming from here.

dubblemonkey · Jun 16, 2013, 12:53 AM

plans oh plans...urk oop ak yipe!

I did a 'beer' schnapps plan yesterday or whatever the time before this current one is. I think it was necessary to scatter my brain into millions of squiggly bits!

today the squiggly bits can re-assemble if they choose to...it's honest work!

I just don't want to give a crap about anything sometimes!

and it takes industrial strength beer schnapps to motivate me
no pasta though that would be good maybe it's take-away day get some poor bastard to meet me at the door with a meal made by a stranger!...who hopefully gives a crap when I don't?

eeek!...ark! orp!

Jun 16, 2013, 02:16 AM

Hey James how are u tonight? I quit posting until now, lol. Anyway dealing with paranoia regarding just a few of the ppl that post on here. I've told u about it....where a lot of abuse goes down...Anyway I'm so excited a documentary is coming out soon exposing how sick it is...yeehaw

Same ol, same old. Bipolar disorder sucks.

~Christina · Jun 16, 2013, 04:16 PM

Well !

My Plan was a smashing success ! Pain free for 8 hours that I was awake for , no idea how many while sleeping such an amazing sleep ! Woke up in pain from hell of course, but who caresssssssss !

I had many hours of no pain, consumed a disgusting amount of calories. My Plan was flawless !