[Nessa213]

It started maybe a week ago. I mean, technically, it's started about months ago, but I just started noticing it getting REAL bad about a week ago. I haven't been able to read a book... email... post on the forum...

That's any longer than like, 3 sentences. I mean I CAN... sort of. If I try really REALLY hard and kind of say it outloud and slowly. I'm pretty laid back and chill most of the time, but I've just been so... spaced out. I guess that's the best way to put it.

I was blaming it on the fact that I just got my contacts and that sensation is very weird. But I keep getting randomly dizzy. Like... foggy. It's hard to for me to work up the ambition to get anything done. Anything. Granted I haven't been around for a few days (at home) but I've had dishes in the sink for over a week. It's gross and I can't do it.

I lost my bank card last week but took that as a sign that I probably shouldn't have one anyway. And (wow, shock) last week was the first week in a while that we didn't have only $5 left in the bank account before payday. Go figure.

I haven't wanted to cook anything. In like... forever. This coming from the person that used to bake her own bread. And make EVERYTHING from scratch.

But... I don't feel depressed. I don't feel overly sad or anything. I feel... nothing. I mean, I don't feel like a monster. A friend told me they were going through a hard time and I felt sad for them, I still can feel emotion. It's not like totally gone. I just feel like I'm existing. I'm here. I'll go to bed soon. Then I'll get up and continue existing tomorrow.

[A Red Panda]

I get like that sometimes too. Where nothing at all seems to matter and I'm just feeling like I'm blank and empty.

[Nessa213]

I've just been getting very spaced out lately. And it is kind of an empty feeling.

It's almost like...

hm...

Like my mind will wander off in the middle of whatever I'm doing. And then whatever I'm thinking about, I'll physically see. Like I can't see the "real" world anymore. I'm literally blinded by my own thoughts.

It's like my body is trying to live in two different worlds right now. It's bizarre. Truly bizarre.

[A Red Panda]

I tend to find I get like that more often when I'm either a) tired and haven't necessarily realized it yet or b) stressed out and haven't necessarily realized it yet.

My brain will just check out and be thinking about nothing but it'll be going in a little circle trying to figure out what it IS thinking about or doing.

Nessa, I think you need to have some blood work done to see what's going on. Would
you consider asking your psychiatrist to help you with this? It can probably be corrected. No need for you to continue to suffer this way.

Hope you're better soon and have the help you need with this.

[Nessa213]

If it were bloodwork, what would it be? (Just out of curiosity.) Like I mean, what would they test for in this?

Could be too much of a drug which would show up; could be alkaline vs acidic conditions of
fluids; could be low on one or more vitamins necessary for brain function... just lots of things, including allergens that may be bothering you. Medications are going to take their toll on
our vitamin reserves as they are metabolized; I'm thinking you might be low on one or more
in your system. Do you take a high quality multiple vitamin daily? We've got to be pro-active
in helping to keep ourselves strong with these psychotropic meds working their thing.

It's worth a try, in my view, especially if you haven't had blood work done in the last six months.

Vitamin B6 is known to be one that is drained by medication digestive process. The whole B series is helpful for brain function, as are many others.

Water is the best solvent there is. I would get a supply of purified water and drink a good bit
of it. Maybe that could lessen the intensity of the symptoms if you can't get blood work
done soon.