[manicdepressive07]

Does anyone else experience this? I'm not sure if it's because I recently switched meds, or because I'm coming "down" off my daytime adderall dose, or even because my boyfriend has been out of town for the last 6 weeks working... but every night I feel slightly depressed. Sometimes (like right now) I just want to go to bed (even though I'm not tired) because I know I'll feel better in the morning. Like right now I feel like crying... and I couldn't tell you quite why I just feel an overwhelming sadness I can't explain. Also being on facebook makes it SO much worse... I've actually had to deactivate my account several times because being on there made me so upset. It's usually because I see my friends out doing something, having fun, and I think to myself "why didn't they invite me? Is there something wrong with me?" and then I get upset and deactivate my account over it. Idk maybe I'm not on the right meds... I'm seeing pdoc on friday so I'll talk to him about it :/

[middlepath]

I am not sure if it is the same type of thing that I use to experience but there were periods of time I got the "evening blues". I was fine all day and then right around sunset, i would feel depressed (mildly) and the same pattern would continue usually for weeks. I don't notice it now and havent for a long while so maybe it was some type of transition or life stress causing it when it use to happen. It sounds like you have been under some stress w/ BF gone. I am sorry you are feeling that way right now though. Hopefully pdoc can help you sort it out.

Side note---facebook just hurts my feelings usually too. It brings out all my insecurities and makes me feel like i am awkward and 15 years old in high school all over again. I think i need to say goodbye to FB, too. Why continue to do something that triggers bad emotions? That is a question that I need to answer...I am not sure either of us have a response to that yet, right? Maybe curiosity? Like if I turn off FB permanently then I won't know whats happening? IDK.

[A Red Panda]

If I find myself crashing downwards late in the evening? Usually it means that I wore myself out during the day somehow or another. I might have even had a good day, just physically wore myself out! Or maybe it was a bit of a stressful day and I spent all my energy keeping it together. Or perhaps I was just really busy and didn't have any time for myself.

[Victoria'smom]

Night is my worst, I usually ramp up or down around sunset but always completely ridden with anxiety.

[Nessa213]

I stopped checking facebook a few months ago. It always just made me feel depressed and it just wasn't worth it. Not only that, I really didn't give a damn about most of those people. And the ones that I DID, I could just text them personally.

If in a depressive cycle it's more likely to be intensified at night, especially if I'm by myself. If someone's there it's not SO bad because at least it's not just me alone with my thoughts and don't have enough energy to do anything keep my mind off of it.

[ultramar]

If you're largely alone at night and during the day you're with people, do think you feel down because you feel alone? Or in being alone, it gives you the chance to ruminate on things that upset you/make you sad? If you feel okay when you're with people and not, when not, maybe this is part of it?

[manicdepressive07]

I'm usually alone during the day by myself too... and I've actually noticed 2 mixed episodes while on this medication (both happened at night) and other things like my paranoia comes and goes, (I didn't have any mixed episodes or paranoid thinking on Saphris) Oh btw I should probably mention that I'm taking Geodon now and I take 80mg at night.

So I think i've come to the conclusion that either:

1) This medication isn't working
2) This medication isn't at a high enough dose (I've read a lot of people take upwards of 180mg of Geodon)
3) This medication isn't working because I'm not eating enough with it.
(I'm supposed to have dinner with it... but most nights my dinner consists of a tuna sandwich or a bowl of oatmeal or something, so maybe I'm not getting enough calories with it so it's not working).

Anyways thanks for all your replies! I'm going to talk to my pdoc about it tomorrow and see what he says. I have the feeling he's going to up my dosage.

Has anyone tried Topamax? I might create a thread about it if I don't get enough replies here. I read a lot about it last night and I think I might really benefit from it. I like that it is also used to treat migraines (which I do get on occasion) and it's been shown to help people lose weight! The only thing I didn't like reading about it was it causes cognitive difficulties with A LOT of people where they're thinking and speech was slow. NOT good since I'm about to start a new job.

[sweepy62]

Night time for me is the opposite I'm anxious as I fear the dark

[wiretwister]

during the day I am busy and my mind is filled with have too's,, at night the loneliness the depression creeps in and I pray for sleep...

[cool09]

There are different types of clinical depression (atypical being one) and PDOCs usually like to know when you get depressed. I had side effects (agitation, nervousness, hot flashes) coming off of adderall every day, too. Who knows what else it can do to you. I've actually woken up in the morning crying during very reflective periods (and/or strange, sad dreams). (eg. imagining losing a loved one, etc.)

[manicdepressive07]

Cool09, do you still take adderall? I take 15mg when I get up and another 15mg between 4-6pm. I think maybe I just won't take my afternoon adderall unless I really need it and see if that helps.

[ultramar]

Originally Posted by manicdepressive07

I'm usually alone during the day by myself too... and I've actually noticed 2 mixed episodes while on this medication (both happened at night) and other things like my paranoia comes and goes, (I didn't have any mixed episodes or paranoid thinking on Saphris) Oh btw I should probably mention that I'm taking Geodon now and I take 80mg at night.

So I think i've come to the conclusion that either:

1) This medication isn't working
2) This medication isn't at a high enough dose (I've read a lot of people take upwards of 180mg of Geodon)
3) This medication isn't working because I'm not eating enough with it.
(I'm supposed to have dinner with it... but most nights my dinner consists of a tuna sandwich or a bowl of oatmeal or something, so maybe I'm not getting enough calories with it so it's not working).

Anyways thanks for all your replies! I'm going to talk to my pdoc about it tomorrow and see what he says. I have the feeling he's going to up my dosage.

Has anyone tried Topamax? I might create a thread about it if I don't get enough replies here. I read a lot about it last night and I think I might really benefit from it. I like that it is also used to treat migraines (which I do get on occasion) and it's been shown to help people lose weight! The only thing I didn't like reading about it was it causes cognitive difficulties with A LOT of people where they're thinking and speech was slow. NOT good since I'm about to start a new job.

My understanding is that Topamax is used for neuropathic pain (including migraines) -I don't think it's approved for bipolar, but not 100% sure.