Yeah...lol, crazy morning for me. If I'm not careful sometimes, I can let myself really go off the edge when I am feeling this way.

Usually good at controlling myself! I don't know how I let that slip!

Oh well... I caught it and that's what matters.

If it happens though, it's usually the morning time. I'm up before the kids and my wife leaves for work early in the morning around 6. So that is like my quiet time, drinking coffee and letting the new day set in.

Before, for those of you that have known me from before, I did not do good alone, while the kids were in school and wife was at work. I used to have a lot of crisis alone. But, I got past that while I was 'away'... So that's something good that has come of things.

Today is the first day that I have 'real' time at home without anyone else here. Last year at this time I was cutting and having the hardest time... desperate. But not now! Now I am waiting to see how much I have learned and how well I do!

Makes me think about my daughter starting to cut. She doesn't know about me doing it. No way she saw or was told about it. I feel guilty knowing that was something I was really into last year, around the time of my diagnosis. And my other daughter with her out of control emotions. That's something I'm guilty of too. Obviously for anyone who knew me before lmao.

anyways, just checking in to say, I'm past that now. Back in control.

[comicgeek007]

Originally Posted by dumbfounded

Yeah...lol, crazy morning for me. If I'm not careful sometimes, I can let myself really go off the edge when I am feeling this way.

Usually good at controlling myself! I don't know how I let that slip!

Oh well... I caught it and that's what matters.

If it happens though, it's usually the morning time. I'm up before the kids and my wife leaves for work early in the morning around 6. So that is like my quiet time, drinking coffee and letting the new day set in.

Before, for those of you that have known me from before, I did not do good alone, while the kids were in school and wife was at work. I used to have a lot of crisis alone. But, I got past that while I was 'away'... So that's something good that has come of things.

Today is the first day that I have 'real' time at home without anyone else here. Last year at this time I was cutting and having the hardest time... desperate. But not now! Now I am waiting to see how much I have learned and how well I do!

Makes me think about my daughter starting to cut. She doesn't know about me doing it. No way she saw or was told about it. I feel guilty knowing that was something I was really into last year, around the time of my diagnosis. And my other daughter with her out of control emotions. That's something I'm guilty of too. Obviously for anyone who knew me before lmao.

anyways, just checking in to say, I'm past that now. Back in control.

That's great to hear!

[BlueInanna]

Will respond more later ... Totally can't focus - woke up at 4 & watched a nice meteor shower at least 1 per minute!