[sweepy62]

Does anyone ever have a great day and then feel guilty and down for having felt happy during the day? That's my problem all the time I feel so guilty I feel I don't deserve it or that something will go wrong because of it , and sometimes things go wrong and I associate it with my happiness which is why I have a happy meter sort of speak, so when I feel myself too happy I tone it down and I know this is weird . I'm wondering if its rare to feel this way?

[A Red Panda]

HA! I totally feel like that sometimes. When I get to a point where I'm feeling actually happy with life... it almost always gets sabotaged by me wondering when on earth it's going to go away this time and get super sad about the fact that it's going to go away. This usually continues until I trigger myself into a depression, because I don't think that I deserve to be happy.

But then I also have sort of an opposite situation too: I'll wake up depressed, I'll go out and have a relatively fine day, but the MOMENT I'm not occupied... the depression floods right back in. But I'm pretty good at pushing it away if I'm doing things.

[unaluna]

I am totally like this. Usually my mother will do something to bring me down, then it takes me 3 months to get back up. I'm not making much progress in life.

[sweepy62]

Thanks so much for replying I thought it was so wierd of me to sabotage myself but its just the way I feel I can say I am afraid to be happy.

[A Red Panda]

Originally Posted by sweepy62

Thanks so much for replying I thought it was so wierd of me to sabotage myself but its just the way I feel I can say I am afraid to be happy.

I could have wrote that myself, fyi!

[sweepy62]

Originally Posted by A Red Panda

I could have wrote that myself, fyi!

sorry did I think I wrote that twice

[A Red Panda]

No no sweepey, I mean that what you said fits PERFECTLY with my own mindset. I sabotage myself and am afraid of being happy.

[sweepy62]

Originally Posted by A Red Panda

No no sweepey, I mean that what you said fits PERFECTLY with my own mindset. I sabotage myself and am afraid of being happy.

oh lol ok my bad

[deelooted]

Originally Posted by A Red Panda

HA! I totally feel like that sometimes. When I get to a point where I'm feeling actually happy with life... it almost always gets sabotaged by me wondering when on earth it's going to go away this time and get super sad about the fact that it's going to go away. This usually continues until I trigger myself into a depression, because I don't think that I deserve to be happy.

But then I also have sort of an opposite situation too: I'll wake up depressed, I'll go out and have a relatively fine day, but the MOMENT I'm not occupied... the depression floods right back in. But I'm pretty good at pushing it away if I'm doing things.

What Panda said, right on the money! I feel exactly that, too.

[~Christina]

I think everyone is guilty of this at some point .. I have done it many a time. I finally got fed up of ruining yesterdays good mood by over thinking today lousy mood.

Enjoy the hell out of great days , accept the bad times but use your coping skills ten fold to try and minimize a lousy day .. A lousy day does not always mean your headed for a depressive hell. <~~ That I think is a hard thing to rationalize or at least it has been for me. Everyone have lousy days .

My MI free husband was in a great mood yesterday, today he is a grumpy a.s.s .. no real reason he just is .

Just try to stay in the moment ... Mindfulness is so helpful, Yes I post alot about it ... Because it works

[IndieVisible]

Not guilty, I feel worried. Because I know the better I feel, the more elevated I get, the harder the fall will be when I do fall.

[Revu2]

Hi,

With my latest rise and fall, I've curtailed most of my pursuit of goals to take a clear eyed look at just how these swings work and how I might heal myself of having them.

I guess this thread prompts me to post my own on success-triggered mania. Not every success leads to my mania, as this table show:

Group or team success — no mania
success @ work — no mania
success with project with partner — chance of mania
success at a private, personal goal — high chance of mania

While manic, I wing myself away from safety thinking and grounding in what is going on inside and outside of me.
Then some mistake, breakage, or fall happens and boom! Crash! and then it's a long, long time to recover even normalcy. Then to repair the damage if possible. Lots of doubts during this recovery time, with frustrated sense that I will never get free of this pattern.

Revu2, Seattle

[sweepy62]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I think everyone is guilty of this at some point .. I have done it many a time. I finally got fed up of ruining yesterdays good mood by over thinking today lousy mood.

Enjoy the hell out of great days , accept the bad times but use your coping skills ten fold to try and minimize a lousy day .. A lousy day does not always mean your headed for a depressive hell. <~~ That I think is a hard thing to rationalize or at least it has been for me. Everyone have lousy days .

My MI free husband was in a great mood yesterday, today he is a grumpy a.s.s .. no real reason he just is .

Just try to stay in the moment ... Mindfulness is so helpful, Yes I post alot about it ... Because it works

I just started using mindfulness, and it has helped alot with anxiety, I suffer alot from that, thinking that somehow everything will always go wrong.

[deelooted]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I think everyone is guilty of this at some point .. I have done it many a time. I finally got fed up of ruining yesterdays good mood by over thinking today lousy mood.

Enjoy the hell out of great days , accept the bad times but use your coping skills ten fold to try and minimize a lousy day .. A lousy day does not always mean your headed for a depressive hell. <~~ That I think is a hard thing to rationalize or at least it has been for me. Everyone have lousy days .

My MI free husband was in a great mood yesterday, today he is a grumpy a.s.s .. no real reason he just is .

Just try to stay in the moment ... Mindfulness is so helpful, Yes I post alot about it ... Because it works

very funny, and very true