[inconsistentanomaly]

Hi everyone, just thought I'd introduce myself...really been struggling lately, job hopped a fair bit because I'd be great at it one minute and unable to get out of bed the next, don't know how I managed to make it through uni.

Had a suicide attempt last year and voluntarily went into a ward because I needed to cut the cycle, still been up and down since.

Doctor referred me to a psych again who said he's pretty certain I've got bipolar 2 but it took me a long time to even acknowledge it because I feared the stigma and I just tried to cling on. Ended up slipping a lot the last couple of weeks, and I'm coming to my wits end. Going to do as the doc says and get the lamotragine they suggested, but I don't know if it'll work.

I don't know what's going to happen, what I should do really. Will I ever get any stability? Is my career ruined, I have no idea what to think about all this.

Anyway, I've had a look round and you all look like nice folks

Hope you are all doing ok

[gayleggg]

Welcome, inconsistentanomaly. I'm glad you are seeing a psychiatrist and are getting help. None of us ever know if a drug will work for us until we try. I've been on many. Some worked for while and others did nothing but make things worse. It's trial and error I'm afraid. Hopefully the meds will give you some stability and you can go on with your career. Being bipolar is not easy and there will be bumps in the road, but many people go on to have a fairly normal life. Glad you came to PC. I think you will find it to be a very supportive place to be.

[pegasus]

Hello inconsistentanomaly, nice to meet you. You've chosen a great forum, everyone is very supportive here and understand totally. Hang in there, things will get better!

[kaliope]

HI
Welcome to Psych Central. You will find several forums that may be of interest to you where you can post your concerns and receive feedback from other members. You will get a lot of support here. Again, welcome.

[Victoria'smom]

Hi, welcome. I took me a ton of years kicking and screaming to finally accept my dx. So you are not alone with that. Lamictal was/is the first drug to give me stability. Stability is a strange thing as it usually involves reducing stressors and therapy. welcome.

[inconsistentanomaly]

Thanks all for the great welcome and advice

It's frustrating when trial and error comes into it because I've been doing that with anti-d's because I thought it was depression :<

Just got to plough through though I guess, as hard as it feels right now. I need to work on a routine, does anyone have any ideas how I might get one going without just doing it while I'm feeling on a high and then completely dropping it? Not expecting everyone to have all the answers or anything, just talking

[FallenTree]

Hi! I'm pretty new here too.

The coolest thing for me has been the realization that these folks experience the same or similar **** I do. Used to believe that I was some sort of totally deficent person - I now think that being BP might have something to do with it....

[Coffee Girl]

Hello and welcome. Sounds like you are well on your way to helping yourself get some answers. I can relate to the job hopping as I have that in my history. Anyway, no real words of wisdom....but welcome.

[Victoria'smom]

I have a poster of self care things in the bathroom that I have to do before I leave the bathroom when I finally can't "hold it" in the morning.