Sometimes I just want to stop my meds so I can get angry and really explode on someone. I hate this. I'm angry, but can't get it out. I just hate it.

I know I need to stand up for myself, and I try to stay rational, but being rational is not working. I really think that an explosion would basically say don't f w/ me.

I hate my roommate. All he ever does is think about himself. He's bringing his daughter here, knowing I don't want her here. Every time she is over here, the cops come. I don't want the cops at my house. Oh, the last time, he swore up and down she would never come back over here. That it wasn't fair to me to have to deal w/ all the b/s. Obviously he has no word. I don't want her here. She steals and takes things that aren't hers.

I know, I need to move w/ all this chaos. But I can't afford it. I'm barely stable as it is. And this added stress is not going to help any.

i'm going to go talk to my landlord tomorrow morning before I go to work, and see if he can kick him out, or at least tell him that the lease, she can't be here.

I'm so pissed. I don't like this feeling. It sucks so bad. I like be the fun loving guy that everybody thinks I am. I enjoy just relaxing, but I just can't handle the stress.

I'm sorry to you guys for dumping on you like this, but I just need to get it out. God, my thoughts are all over the place right now. Just need to slow down a little bit. I know I'm not doing myself any good, but I'm to the point I'm just ready to say screw it.

[gayleggg]

Sorry to here your roommate is causing you such problems. Glad you know you can always vent here. I was glad to lend an ear. I hope you can work out something about the daughter not coming over soon, so you can get back to you happy self.

[~Christina]

Damn sorry Jeffro !

You have every right to be mad pissed off upset to no end .. I think its often better to just let yourself feel the feelings and move from one to the other .. I find it often gets the feelings out of me instead of trying to keep them stuffed down inside of me..

Just be kind to yourself and do talk to your landlord tomorrow

[falling star]

You are wise to know your limits. I am proud of you for make steps to resolve this problem rationally. That separates the men from the boys. You have given more than your share to your roommates and they need to be worried. You are such a strong man and I know you will make a safe place for yourself. I am behind you all the way!

Thank you all for being here for me. I'm a little lost, but I know I can find my way

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[Skittles56]

Look at it as something you just have to do. Calmly, without emotion. Actually, your meds will help you do that.

It sounds like you are somewhat non-confrontational. I am too. You have to remember that people will take advantage of that, but they can only do so if you let them. I was in a relationship like that. It took me forever to work up the will to get it out of my life, but I did it. I have confidence that you will too.

[IndieVisible]

Wow, I never have that problem, anger just seems to break out easily for me, which is not a good thing either! I have to stay 100% functional for my job so it's essential I am not over medicated. The price for that of course is to give up some comfort too. My depression, anxiety, anger, mood swings are always there, just not as bad. I do recall years ago when I was over med I felt nothing. I didn't like that either. Your roommate is playing you friend. He knows you like a book.

Skittles and visible, both of you are right. I don't like confrontation, but he also knows, b/c we've gotten into it before, bad, that he can only push me so far. However, the last time we got into it, I was unmedicated. Thanks to both of you.

I called my landlord this afternoon, and told him I was coming to see him in the morning.