thinking deep thoughts

So, do any of you think about what line differentiates between a rich inner life and crossing into delusion? I know when I crossed the line in 06, I haven't gone down that road since then. But I do realize I have always had thoughts and stories and fantasies in my head from a very young age. Although there are times when being inside my head is not such a grand place to be. Depression creates very dark images.

I have a wonderful imagination, but some time it turns on me. It's only when I believe the things or feel I should make real is when I'm concerned.

I've had thoughts and stories and fantasies running through my head as well. For obvious reasons, I never know they have turned into delusions until after the fact. What differentiates them for me is that when I believe one of my fantasies will come true as opposed to believing that they could come true, I have crossed the line into delusion. That would seem obvious to someone who has never had psychotic delusions. The truth is that it is harder for us to tell that it is happening to us.

I dream...i desire.. When i begin to covet...thats when i know ive gone too far.

I think I understand the covet part. A 174 page written fantasy about a rock star is ok. Buying a plane ticket unasked to see the man you've been having an online fantasy with is not.

Yup...like that

delusion is a very powerful thing ... it delivers unreality information to us express and overexpress!

the opening into insanity is a vast expansive doorway into the deepest recesses of human pain...

so while I scatter about infected with mental poison!... do I know how to escape from the plains of identity hell?

..can I navigate this emotionally scavenged landscape with a diminished mental agility?

yes I very often consider the potential personality lapse

where I am inclined to drift into the dark self underworld...where sensible paths cross and sense deteriorates....

universal trust is the only spiritual ambulance ....designed to revive and activate the overlife

and the brain will tamper with the underlife....

in this wonderful accident of humanity

so yep... I think about it ...

Wondering what the divide between imagination and delusion is? Sometimes I think that

just because it is not seen as real by others thoughts or perceptions are dismissed.

Perhaps no one sees ultraviolet rays or infra-red but maybe I do and maybe when I see

atoms splitting and the fabric of the universe maybe that's because it is so but it's not

acceptable in our society to see these things. I wonder about being that child with an

over-active imagination and now the link of being told I can be slightly nuts. I guess

humans have a code, if the code is circumnavigated we are labelled as "other". I like

your words dubblemonkey. Ah crud i was going to draw a diagram but can't work out the

keys. but you know I think we are all fractals with so much ahead of us and so much

behind us and so so much within us. when you see /feel it it is overwhelming because

how can we take in soooo much information? The only part I struggle with that a lot of

the time there is just miles of void and deep despair that it is pretty impossible to

continue and just when waves of euphoria hit it can so quickly turn again into something

dangerous to ones own existence. I am never sure where the alter reality is actually

the one I should be listening to. Then I have to remember human principles lie caring

for those you love, basic needs like eating and that I wish to harm none.
Slightly distracted and may be off topic.
Wishing you peace. B

Thank you as always for your wonderful words I feel but do not have the beauty to express.