[bumble2u]

Hell, I don't know, have the urge to type to type myself out of this . If i could i would drive t this moment out and away but there are something that I feel compelled to do before i go there are some things that just aren't seen. I want to create a huge ever-changing fractal like a weather station over the river in my garden the river and atmospheric pressures will challenge the nature of the fractal which is ever changing- morphing beautiful. I see colours how I put this into being,. Especially when the mirror tells me this is no place for reality a mask of ourselves and please if it could sing and make music this is what needs to occurs. It the halo of such a glory that we find our true selves. Such bitterness and darkness, a seepage into our very core. We look for the different and abject when we should see the beauty and belonging that we all need to feel. I know none will read this or care to understand this . Well I hear music , I will kick the ref in the knee that tries to tell me otherwise that : Jean Luc Picard: make it so. I only know my fingers want to fly .It sounds like this is amazing it is but underneath what I can't tell you you is that it is hurting a lot and my bpd within the bp is calling for annihilation

[Zabine]

You seem really intense right now, soooooooooooo opposite of how I feel. Not sure which I would prefer right now.....

[bumble2u]

Someone lit the firework stand back!!!! I understand the opposite cause that's me most of the time. I'm sorry if you feel un-intense if that's even a word. just think of the power of the full moon shining down upon you. as it weaves it's way down every neurological pathway making all senses tingling. Bestowing upon us the ancient wisdoms of light ad dak. etching into our very brains rites of passage long forgotten. we shall find these again and rejoice in the simplicity of readl life. Oh i am tempted to trash my computer as I speak and the telphones that nag us day in day out maybe I should place my exploding car as a mighty pire into the murky rivers and pike will snack on left over werthers and transform into one foooted giraffes haaa. By the way my pumpkin has already gone molddy. too bad but it does add a je ne sais quois to his look. Ok i should shut up .

[Moose72]

Your posts sound like mine did when i was manic.

[Moose72]

I thought the sun was sending messages straight into my brain. I thought angels were telling me the secrets of the universe and that all was okay with the world. I thought I could fly. Any of this sound familiar? I was manic. Only a matter of weeks ago.

[Zabine]

I like it when you talk manic to me lol...........

[Moose72]

Bumble can you call someone?Psych ER? Does your Pdoc do evening calls? I'm getting concerned about you based on your posts. You are sounding like I did when manic.