[Otter63]

I'm getting things done, I feel pretty good and I have a sex drive. These are the symptoms of my disease? How wacko is that?

Can you relate?

the only thing that concerns me about feeling good, is knowing that i'm going to feel crap again afterwards- and sometimes that is all i can think about.

[Andysmom]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

the only thing that concerns me about feeling good, is knowing that i'm going to feel crap again afterwards- and sometimes that is all i can think about.

I agree. I am always waiting for everything to fall apart again!

Since August, every time I feel good (like today) I hope it means I'm crawling out of the depressive phase and it'll be "over." So far, I end up feeling crappy eventually, whether it's later that day or few days later. Can't seem to string more than a few days in a row since early August. Frustrating!

[allme]

I am BPD with suspected BP2 but who knows....but anyway, yeah I relate to what others have said. I felt good for nearly 2 months with a few twists and turns but nothing major....but back to feeling bad again. over and over again, here we go....

[thickntired]

I feel like it's too much to ask to feel good; I don't even remember when I last was happy. I can remember vividly the last time I was manic or suicidal. What makes me happy is to just be in the middle of the swings. My husband is always saying I'm not happy. It really pisses me off because happy often leads to mania so I don't like to go there.

TnT

[Moose72]

When I began to get manic three weeks ago, it happened so gradually, I didn't get concerned. I just gradually got there and then whoops! I was manic. They raised my meds while in the hospital and I'm stable now. If there's a depressive episode in my future, I can't see it. I hope the med increase has made me skip the lows.

It scares me when my mind is at peace which only seems to happen before a major mood swing. Then I get anxious waiting for the other shoe to drop. I try not to think about it, but it's always there.

[Confusedinomicon]

Look at your sleep patterns. If you notice you are sleeping less (non-intentionally) its usually the easiest way to indicate a mood shift. If you sleep too much it can indicate a depressive phase.

What is too much/too little depends on the individual.

If in doubt talk to your health provider.

Personally I don't think about my happiness/unhappiness too much because feelings are fleeting. I tend to look at thoughts/behaviors. Sleep is something that is easy to track.

[Zabine]

I would say enjoy it.