Do any of feel like you have to pretend to be in a normal mood just because

OMG that's why I love coming on this site. It is so awesome to know I'm not alone in what I'm going through. Just yesterday I wrote a whole essay on pretending and when I came on here I saw this thread. This made me feel so much better because it's not really something you can explain to anyone.
I pretend all the time, really most of the time. I think I am good at it as I get so much practice. My husband can sometimes see through it. He said yesterday that he is worried about me and I though 'if you only knew half of it you'd be utterly concerned' but hey, I didn't say it.
I used to think it a great tool.... pretend you're happy and you are yay! It doesn't work like that though because I still know what's really going on inside, it's almost worst. Also, I thought it a talent to be able to snap out of a low and put on a façade when someone arrives to whom I have to be normal to. Still, it isn't really snapping out of it, is it?
What I find amazing is that most of you (of us) mentions something about saving other people from our 'real' state of mind. Yes, it is noble in a way and given the choice I am sure most people would then rather prefer us to pretend as long as they don't know or have to know. It is probably ultimately for ourselves to not get questioned or judged or treated unpleasantly. Oh, the things we have to do!
It does feel incongruent though, doesn't it? Not being how you're feeling most of the time is still a weird concept to me and yet... if so many of us instinctively came to the same part solution of coping mechanism then there is obviously something to say for it; it helps!
May be we can keep faking it till we feel it?

I also fake it the whole day. I don't feel like I can open up to anybody here without being judged or have stories told about me behind my back. Why do people ask you how you are if they don't really care what the answer is? Or you ask them how they are, and they say "good"...and don't even ask how you are...

I'm not judging you :: I think if anyone here asks, they care.
Like someone else said earlier, it's just become a sort of greeting.

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Sorry I was rambling....I do feel safe and accepted here...I DON'T feel the same at work....