[Side of the Angels]

Anyone done this? I had a paranoid episode regarding the government watching me and that the electrical grid was going to shut down so I filled up my basement with 70 gallons of water and two months worth of food. Then it went away a few weeks later. My pdoc said it was from bipolar disorder... delusions and paranoia.This time it is Othello-Syndrome-like symptoms, obsessive paranoia and made up situations and "proof" that hub is cheating... he is def not... I obsess for days on end, in fact this has been going on for more than 6 months and getting worse. Wondering if its Bipolar-related. I have a pdoc appt today I am going to talk to him about it but I wanted to see if anyone has done this or similar.

[tigersassy]

I've done this but I'm in the same boat as you with not knowing if its bipolar or not.

[IndieVisible]

I have had my fair share of delusions and some of them are out there too! I also get auditory and visual hallucinations at times but mostly delusions. I was diagnosed with BP1 in 1989. However we are not really sure if I am schizoaffective or just bipolar. Basically the difference is if the delusions are dependent of your mood disorder or independent of the mood. In other words if you have delusions when your baseline or not depressed or manic, then it could be schizoaffective. The good news is they are both treated the same and pretty much just a different label for about the same thing.

As with any disorder, everyone is different. Sure there will be similarities but also differences too. I have a recurring delusion the same one since the late 70's and also new ones in addition. I also get very paranoid. And hypomanic, and depressed and anxiety. But despite all that I remain highly functional and been holding a full time job with few breaks. And only hospitalized 3 times. Not too bad. I only mention that because no matter what you have you can be very functional and live a fairly decent life. Some times it takes doctors years before they really understand what we are. Patience and don't worry about the label.

[KalEl]

Hi, I'm new here and I just wanted to share my paranoia episodes. My paranoia usually manifests itself where everybody is out to get me. Family, friends, even strangers. There is always some kind of plot or dislike against me. For years I could never figure it out. I would question myself "what did I do?" "why are people like this to me?" Then I would ask myself "is it me?" But I would think back and say it can't be b/c I have proof of things people have done to me or how people are to me. And all I could figure out is they just don't like me and it is nothing I did. Then after I was diagnosed bipolar I began reading more about the symptoms and began to understand that it really was me. Anyone else have a story similar to this?

Thanks

[Side of the Angels]

K, just got back from Dr. He said it is a psychotic episode from a depression. He said it comes from just regular old depression as well as bipolar depression. He is putting me on Saphris, an antipsychotic, because the Seroquel is not working and at higher doses it will make me sleep for days (as 50 mg alone puts me to sleep and unable to function) This is definitely the worst depression I have ever had, constant suicidal thoughts and ideation and overall...depression. Next week he is changing the antidepressant, though I am not sure what other antidepressant u can take having bipolar other than Wellbutrin, everything else makes me crazier and agitated and hypo. I pray to GOD this helps get me some relief, I cannot live like this anymore. Sometimes I think it's worse because I KNOW how crazy I am acting and I can't help it. With the government paranoia I didn't really know I was acting weird, with this paranoia I know how weird it is and I just can't help it and it makes it ten million times worse. Anyway thank you guys for your input, I am pretty freaked out right now, it seems this mental sh|t just keeps getting worse by the year.