[HelpMe2013]

My iPhone was charging on my friends kitchen table and my air matress is in the living room where my iPhone was charging by the kitchen , I woke up with my iPhone next to me on the air matress

I have no memory of unplugging my phone and laying it next to me

In the morning I woke up and noticed the iPhone next to me, and I got intrusive thoughts that I went on my Instagram and left a violent innapropriate comment
On an old friends picture

Before this I was recently diagnosed with bipolar 1 the psychiatrist also said I have thought disorder and psychosis

I'm on depakote and zyprexa

Does anyone know of bipolar 1 has intrusive thoughts about that you did something bad?

[HelpMe2013]

I have these terrible intrusive thoughts

And in my mind I never want to act on them

But I have these fears of what if I write innapropriate violent emails to ex friends and current friends on facebook, email, Instagram, twitter etc... While I'm sleepwalking and not remember it

I never want to do any of these things

But it's this fear of what if I already did write something bad and my mind blanked it out

I have intrusive thoughts, all the time. I get extremely violent, scary, sexual and very upsetting intrusive thoughts. Some days they are constant. I do have Bipolar but the intrusive thoughts are due to OCD that happens regardless of my bipolar mood state.

Try to remember that you will not act on these thoughts, you think you might, you worry that you might just do what they urge you to do one day - but in all my years I have very very very rarely acted on them. Its very unlikely you will do it and not remember it. Try to hold on to the fact that you are a good person and wouldnt do these things.

Im sorry you are suffering so much. I can really relate. I am hoping to get these thoughts sorted this year with therapy as meds have barely had an effect on them. My pdoc seems to dismiss them though which is a bit frustrating as they do upset me so much. Perhaps you can find a therapist to help you through this?

[jesusplay]

according to the internet I'm bipolar 2, last couple doctors bipolar 1 and current just "bipolar".

I get intrusive thoughts.

Geodon help at first but now it makes me nauseous and want to die, I think about dying.

[couldntkelpit]

Originally Posted by HelpMe2013

My iPhone was charging on my friends kitchen table and my air matress is in the living room where my iPhone was charging by the kitchen , I woke up with my iPhone next to me on the air matress

I have no memory of unplugging my phone and laying it next to me

Bipolar 1 here. I do this as part of depersonalization disorder. Recently I had an episode while I was driving and "came to" and didn't know where I was. Sometimes I'll find that I've already done something I that I had been previously intending to do and don't remember doing it.

Originally Posted by HelpMe2013

In the morning I woke up and noticed the iPhone next to me, and I got intrusive thoughts that I went on my Instagram and left a violent innapropriate comment
On an old friends picture

Originally Posted by HelpMe2013

Does anyone know of bipolar 1 has intrusive thoughts about that you did something bad?

This reminds me of my OCD tendency -- the obsessive thought that something's amiss. Then I have to check--compulsive part. Did you have to look at the instagram to see if you left one?

Originally Posted by HelpMe2013

Before this I was recently diagnosed with bipolar 1 the psychiatrist also said I have thought disorder and psychosis

Are you also seeing a therapist? My therapist has made the diagnoses and sent me to the psychiatrist who then prescribed the medication. The psychiatrist don't really see me long enough or often enough to make an educated diagnosis. The therapist is the one who is really able to uncover enough information to make an accurate diagnosis. The psychiatrist I'll only see for 10-15 minutes; he does not provide therapy.

[Victoria'smom]

I get them. T says they aren't going to go away. Currently we are trying to figure out if it's part of psychosis or OCD.

[BipolaRNurse]

Bipolar 1, intrusive thoughts here too. I've never acted on any of them, and my AP helps prevent a lot of them in the first place. I do notice that I have them a lot more often when I'm stressed, but then I self-soothe by reminding myself that my brain is messing with me, that I would never do any of the things I think about, and that I'm not an evil person.

[~Christina]

Yes ! lots of self grounding can help. Also Just being aware it happens huge so very helpful.

[Qbug223]

Mine does big time. Lots all day. Like today at lunch, I thought what if I killed myself rightvin front of my whole family? That would shock them. And it upset me. Ive delt with them my whole life, dont worry. Just remember theyre just thoughts, not truth.

[Moose72]

I get thoughts that just play thought my mind without my trying. Usually of my trying to kill myself. I do blank out of what I'm doing because I'm thinking of other things, lots of times while driving, but other times too. Somtimes my brain can't turn off and I get very upset. I think intrusive thoughts are thoughts that play that you can't control.

[Brontoset]

I have some horrible intrusive thoughts. Some of them I can't even talk about, but one of them involves crashing a friends wedding. I don't want to do that.

[HelpMe2013]

Originally Posted by Supanova

I have intrusive thoughts, all the time. I get extremely violent, scary, sexual and very upsetting intrusive thoughts. Some days they are constant. I do have Bipolar but the intrusive thoughts are due to OCD that happens regardless of my bipolar mood state.

Try to remember that you will not act on these thoughts, you think you might, you worry that you might just do what they urge you to do one day - but in all my years I have very very very rarely acted on them. Its very unlikely you will do it and not remember it. Try to hold on to the fact that you are a good person and wouldnt do these things.

Im sorry you are suffering so much. I can really relate. I am hoping to get these thoughts sorted this year with therapy as meds have barely had an effect on them. My pdoc seems to dismiss them though which is a bit frustrating as they do upset me so much. Perhaps you can find a therapist to help you through this?

what about those who keep questioning themselves as to whether they might have already done some of these things, either very recently, or in the past???!!!

[jesusplay]

I learned a coping skill where you talk back to the thoughts in your head.

a therapist I had told it to me.

I thought it was silly but it has been a life saver.