[OutlawedSpirit]

Since Christmas, finances haven't been great. My wife and I were both off of work for 2 weeks thanks to a plant shutdown over the holidays. We are still behind on bills, paying what we need to keep our house and the electric on, and most everything else is at least a month behind. It doesn't feel like we're ever going to catch up.

Two weeks ago, our daughter had an anaphylactic allergic reaction to something. We're still not sure what it is for sure. The doctor did a food allergy blood test, and we coincidentally found out she is allergic to corn. The doctor doesn't think this is what caused her severe reaction but we were told to take all corn out of her diet. Do you have any idea how much stuff corn is in? She goes to see an allergy specialist in a week to have the corn test redone and for further testing. We had to borrow money to get her an Epipen in case she has a severe reaction again.

The corn thing is really taking it's toll on all of us. Our daughter is only 7 so she sorta understands, but not really. All she knows for sure is that she can't eat a lot of the things she loves. We refuse to eat anything that she can't, so our cupboards are pretty much bare since almost anything in a box or a bag is made with corn.

This is not to mention the fact that we're hesitant with her going anywhere really, since we don't know for sure what she reacted to so badly. It was her birthday last week, and I feel so horrible that she can't bring in a treat for her class because the school requires anything brought in to be store bought, and she can't have any store bought treats because they all use corn in one way or another. Which also means she can't have treats when other kids bring them in either. I think the worst part is there is nothing we can do about it, we can't feed her something she is allergic to.

I'm just at my wits end. My thoughts are changing from SI to sui, and it's pacifying me for now to know that I have an out. I just don't know how long it's going to be before thinking about having an out isn't enough and I want the out.

[Alone & confused]

I hope you don't resort to that! A 14 yr old at my youngest son's school committed sui just yesterday & it broke my heart! I didn't even know her but it still affected me deeply. I would HATE to here that happened to you! Please try to re-direct your thoughts to a more positive direction . Think of what it would do to your loved ones if you follow through with it. I know it's hard, but it IS NOT IMPOSSIBLE to overcome this situation.

[Fuzzybear]

OutlawedSpirit

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It's terrible when your child gets sick. I know it is a big adjustment in your family meals. I'm allergic to chicken, so I kind of know how you feel, though not as much as corn. You will have to be creative for her to have treats.

I know you are feeling down but you have a lot to live for: a wife and child that need you. I know that doesn't make the feelings go away. I had those feelings just a short time ago and only little change in my meds helped me out. Hold onto those you love, there life would be ruined without you in it.