[LadyShadow]

So, I have had always had this problem. Freaking out and lashing out and making rash decisions. Anyone else do this?

I made a thread earlier, and some of the comments really hit home. A guy I really liked disappeared this weekend and I totally lashed out and ended things because I don't like guys that disappear.

You know the waiting, the wondering, the feeling in the pit of your stomach. I just don't want that.

But one of the posters said I was acting like a teenager, and I really believe that I do. Is it the bipolar? Do we just jump and freak out and lash out when things don't go our way?

I'm really confused about this, and I am tired of feeling this way. I wish I was normal, Sigh.

When I was a bipolar teenager I could be known to chuck a tantrum. But as an adult not so much. I rarely lash out, and things rarely go my way haha.

It is not similar to my bipolar experience, but Im sure there are posters who can relate, fear of abandonment is common in BPD and there are many with duel diagnosis.

[A Red Panda]

I've never had problems with lashing out. I do the opposite and withdraw. It's really hard to get me to lash out and be angry - but when I do it's usually pretty massive. And usually happens when I'm panicking and someone won't leave me alone.

I frequently THINK about making rash decisions, but ultimately I always know they're a bad idea and thus I don't... even when I am angry. I've always been like that - I don't do temper tantrums.

[LadyShadow]

I mean lashing out as in making rash decisions. Like jump the gun and assume the worst too soon. No patience is what I guess I'm getting at.

[A Red Panda]

Oh sure, I assume the worst... but I don't associate that with being bipolar. I associate that with having a very low self-worth and a lot of rejection/abandonment/trust issues. Which don't come from bipolar but from my history and experiences.

[LadyShadow]

I guess that's where I'm coming from too. Severe abandonment issues made me lash out at this person for disappearing. I think I pushed him away,

[A Red Panda]

Abandonment and trust issues aren't part of bipolar though.

Although it wouldn't surprise me if a lot of us develop it through the rejections we faced while cycling.

[Lillyleaf]

Usually I have episodes but they are very distinctive from lashing out or having trust issues or other weird things I do.
While the high's or lows may impact them a bit, I never have attached it to my mood. For me they are very separate problems that sometimes may relate only a bit.

[Trippin2.0]

I attribute having the emotional maturity of a child to my BPD dx.

Whenever I tantrum, lash out, act impulsive and irrational (regarding relationships) its because I'm having a bpd *****fit.

My bp symptoms / struggles are very seperate.

I'm not trying to dx you, I'm just relaying that while that has been my experience, its not been my bipolar experience.