[Adonia]

I am diagnosed with anxiety disorder, ADD and bipolar.
I am afraid that there might be something more something deeper.
Sometimes my head feel like it is going to explode.
sound are heightened I am sensitive to light and my brain thinks to much.
sometimes it feels like there are millions of radio’s on in my head and I cant distinguish between the sounds. Sometimes I hear someone call me only to find out it was in my head.
I feel isolated like I cant relate to people around me. I've been told that the things I think about is strange and that it is to high to craps.
sometimes my thought are so fast that I struggle to speak and use the wrong words or invent my own words by combining words.
I feel weak.
When I am depressed its because I feel alone.
My cycles are relatively under control.
I am super good with hiding my feelings and just keep moving.

I was on a suicide mission for 2 years were I drank and smoked marijuana every day of the week I hoped that I would die in a horrible accident. My friends started to believe that I was invincible and could not die.
I am adopted so my family cant relate to how I feel because they do not have any mental illnesses.
My father makes my life a living hell, he says I am crazy and keeps picking on me and finds fault with everything I do. He drains me.
Do I speak to my Psychiatrist?
Should I start seeing a Therapist?
I am afraid I will get sucked into the darkness, the scary thing is a prefer to hide there.

[wildflowerchild25]

Therapy can definitely help! I would try to find someone.

[~Christina]

A good Therapist can be just as helpful as medication ( I feel) .

[laikashuman]

It sounds to me (only from personal experience, as I am also bipolar, ADHD, and have anxiety issues) like you might be having minor manic episodes. I constantly hallucinate. It's always like hearing noises, or hearing voices call for me, and some visual and different types of auditory hallucinations, too. I was told by my psych that it was related to mild manic "tendencies", not quite bad enough to be considered an episode.

IDK for sure, I'd definitely recommend talking to your doctor and giving therapy a try.

[swheaton]

You really should speak to your doc.

[Adonia]

Originally Posted by laikashuman

It sounds to me (only from personal experience, as I am also bipolar, ADHD, and have anxiety issues) like you might be having minor manic episodes. I constantly hallucinate. It's always like hearing noises, or hearing voices call for me, and some visual and different types of auditory hallucinations, too. I was told by my psych that it was related to mild manic "tendencies", not quite bad enough to be considered an episode.

IDK for sure, I'd definitely recommend talking to your doctor and giving therapy a try.

Thanks. I can relate to your hallucinations.
I am seeing my doctor in March. I live in a small town and need to drive two ours to the city to see my Doctor. Will definitely talk to her about the mild manic tendencies.

have you ever been on anything before? (meds wise)

let us know how it goes with your doctor

[Adonia]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

have you ever been on anything before? (meds wise)

let us know how it goes with your doctor

I am on a lot of meds; for anxiety, ADD,mood stabilizer and antidepressants.
I dont want to be on any more I feel like a zombie and I have a full time job and study part time.