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I was depressed for months and months (bp plus postpartum), if not on and off for a year or more (from my pregnancy also)--but always in an altered mood state. My therapist was really worried about me after a session and said she would put out an miw on me if I wasn't evaluated. Well, I was able to say I wouldn't walk out of there and commit suicide so they did not require me to go inpatient but instead had me do an IOP. This was only 3 1/2 weeks ago. Well last Friday I started feeling better and last Saturday I had an epiphany during a long shower that I should stop taking my meds for spiritual reasons, it was such a passionate experience and I was elated. Since then I have had a strong spiritual connection that typically comes with mania for me. I am definitely not manic, I am just not sure if I am either feeling better from the IOP and therefore have energy or if I am hypomanic. My hubs says definitely hypomanic.
Anyway, anyone else have such a drastic change in mood (especially from suicidal to wonderful) in such a short time? I'm not typically a rapid cycler if that is what this is. I keep worrying that once this IOP ends I will plummet again.
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When my depression get better i go from suicidal to wake up fine and wanting to fix everything that I let go.
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What is IOP?
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***** Every finger in the room is pointing at me I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now Tori Amos ~ Crucify Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder |
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Last year I definitely switched extremely. I would start the day after a couple of weeks of depression and I'd want to die...then by the pm I would be bouncing of the walls and head right into mania for the next two weeks. Then back again. It was awful. Never knew who I would be when I woke up :-/
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I'm in an IOP and it definitely has not brought out any feelings like this. Sounds like hypomanic if you're sure you're not manic. I know a med change brought me out of a year long black depression
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That makes sense, thanks for the reply!
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