Depression returns

I think I've been having a hypomanic episode recently or even manic (going to talk about this at next appointment been keeping a mood diary) I knew I've been up recently but I woke up today and the whole world is different, I've definitely come down and boy do I feel awful. In the last 2 weeks I have been out drinking a few times which I think killed off the mania. Manic symptoms I find hard to tell what is and isn't but depression I know and know well. So gutted to feel like this again, my depression lasts long (couple months usually) and can get quite deep. Motivation is near impossible right now, last week I was writing songs now I feel so stupid for writing them and embarassed I told people I did it, which sucks coz I know I shouldn't feel bad about it but I just want to withdraw from the world when a week ago I could have took it over. Depression can go and do one coz I really have had enough of its BS.

I don't get depressive episodes often anymore, but I know how badly they can suck. You have my sympathies.

I'm on the dark side of depression myself. I have no motivation to do anything. Or see anyone. I see my doc tomorrow. I hope we get out of this hole soon. It's so debilitating!!

Just saw the doctor and got a script that should help. I'm a shell of myself and hate it!! I also am trying to educate my boyfriend on it and get support but he doesnt really get it. Hoping.