[Lobster Hands]

Can anybody relate to this? I just wonder because I think I'm pretty easily effected by things anyways. But, then again, I guess I do get stuck in those moods until the they flip to the opposite.

This post wasn't written well but I think somebody will probably know what I'm talking about well enough to respond.

[r010159]

When I was younger, I was very reactive to external events. Also my negative thoughts could help me feel depressed. So at times I had mood changes up and down. Earlier in the day I could be feeling excited and happy, looking forward to the days events. Then later in the day something would happen to help me feel really depressed.

Does this make sense to you?

[Lobster Hands]

Originally Posted by r010159

When I was younger, I was very reactive to external events. Also my negative thoughts could help me feel depressed. So at times I had mood changes up and down. Earlier in the day I could be feeling excited and happy, looking forward to the days events. Then later in the day something would happen to help me feel really depressed.

Does this make sense to you?

Yes/Somewhat, but most times there aren't things to cause the moods. I forgot about that.

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[Trippin2.0]

Originally Posted by Lobster Hands...

Yes/Somewhat, but most times there aren't things to cause the moods. I forgot about that.

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I'm a bit confused, in your first post you say you're easily affected and that the subsequent mood will last, now you're saying nothing causes the moods??

I'm an emotional person, probably in part due to the bpd... buuut, I try and remind myself that everyone has moodswings, we're human. So I try not to pathalogise every feeling, makes living easier to enjoy.

[Lobster Hands]

Oh I was just changing my thoughts...I don't know either really. I only get confused when I try and dissect my moods.

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Originally Posted by Trippin2.0

I try not to pathalogise every feeling, makes living easier to enjoy.

I can't agree enough. This is so, so, so important -- regardless of whether you have a MI or not.

[Lobster Hands]

Thanks for the responses everybody.

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[Hbomb0903]

I have a similar idea that I am terrible at life and bring the depression and i fall apart easier than others. I'm feeling pretty bad though so not sure if its me or the depression talking. I get disasociated with reality in my last few black depressions. I think it's some learned helplessness but it cripples me and I feel paralyzed and intensely alienated in social situations or when I'm not with 'safe' people. When I'm stable this isnt like me at all. Like im two different people.

[SalamanderPuppy]

Hey, so I understand what you're trying to say I think...
It's easy to get confused between cause and effect of moods vs situations, I've tried to figure it out and the only conclusion I've come to is that even though it may feel like I'm reacting to an outside element when my mood swings wildly, more often than not I can find myself making "excuses" to be in a certain mood (or making it easier for myself to get carried away by my mood) E.g. I feel kind of angry or restless... my BF does something that I maybe don't agree with... I fly off the handle... sometimes I've noticed I'm just waiting for these situations so I can vent some "bad" energy. Same thing happen when I'm depressed. I think this accentuates the mood changes and does leave you feeling like you maybe caused them. When I think about it more, the underlying energy type (sad/angry/agitated etc) is always present before I make something of it.

Kind of like everyone said above, I've been trying to learn to accept a thought that comes to my mind, and then try and let go and move on from it. Harder than it sounds though!

Have you tried journalling? That might give you some insight into what is causing your mood reactions, even a mood diary where you chart every single time you have a "mood" and what was happening or just happened for you at that time. If you do this for long enough, I think you would be surprised at what triggers you discover.

If you never deconstruct what your triggers are, you will never stop "rapid cycling", is that really how you want to live the rest of your life? Meds are largely ineffective for people who are reacting to triggers, some work for some people but good therapy is what you really need to stop this kind of "cycling".