[Hbomb0903]

I was just curious to see if this had happened to anyone else. I remember clearly in my previous deep depressions that when I came out of them, it wasn't a gradual feeling better or lessening of symptoms. It was literally like I woke up one day and it was just gone.

I have been taking bupropion now for around 12 days at 150 mg once a day. I upped the dosage today to 150 mg in the am and 150 mg around 3 pm. I was sitting here on my couch, like I have been for weeks now, in utter numbness and apathy. Just that terrible empty, hopeless feeling that has been ever-present....and then suddenly, almost like a bolt of lightning I felt better. Energized even.

It's still here. I don't feel bad anymore. I feel very uncomfortable about dealing with the fallout of the depression since I lost both my jobs and am way behind in bills and such, but I actually feel like I can DEAL WITH IT. Whereas if you had asked me yesterday I would have told you hell no, I can't deal with anything and just felt scared.

I worry a little about going hypo, because that is always a danger taking anti-depressants, but I'm also on lithium and have never really had much of a problem with going too high anyway. I just feel grateful that the soul-sucking depression is gone. I'm hopeful again and it's a blessing.

So I wanted all of your thoughts and comments. Has this happened to you?

[Capriciousness]

Yeah. I have experienced switch flipping. Once I was miserable apathetic empty hearted tortured depressed and I went down the escalators and barnes and noble and at the bottom I all of a sudden felt happy and at peace and back in my own skin and everything was great. It didn't last. And I have switch flipped the other way too. Sigh.

[cashart10]

This is exactly how it happened for me very recently. I think I may have even posted a thread about it because I was dumbfounded, joyful but dumbfounded.

YAY for you! I'm so happy you are finally feeling better and hope that you are able to tie up those loose financial ends quickly!

[ManicIcarus]

One of my drill weekends for the Army went like that. I woke up that Sunday (drill started Friday morning that weekend) just ready to go when I had been in a rut for a week or so before that. Granted I hadn't slept Thursday or Friday night. I guess if you want to be technical that would be showing manic symptoms so it probably wasn't instant, but it certainly felt like it when I woke up Sunday.

[Hbomb0903]

I have a pdoc appt on the 8th which now doesn't seem so far off. I plan on getting my mood stabilizer switched from Lithium to Lamictal and staying with the bupropion. I am excited to just feel like a human again.

[Twigs92]

Yup, I had been depressed all summer, then for two weeks I was in a constant anxious panic, sometimes really paranoid, my thoughts were getting faster, the one day I woke up and everything was fantastic, and it was as if I'd never been depressed. I hope you're okay though.

[wildflowerchild25]

This happens almost every time I switch moods if I'm not medicated! I use te same analogy too - the light is either on or off. Generally when I come out of hypomania or even the rare mania there is no warning - I go from an 8 to a 3 sometimes over the course of the day. My last depression it was like I breathed out - I sighed - and everything shut down. I hardly ever get periods of baseline in between if I'm not on meds. Last unmedicated baseline was actually exactly one year ago when I manged to be normal for the whole I my spring break before shooting up into the stars.

I'm so glad you're feeling better! The only time I've experienced switches flipping is when I've gone from hypo or normal to depression. The last time was 8/4/13 (switch to serious depression).

[Hbomb0903]

Don't feel quite as good this morning, but its nothing like I was feeling for the last month. I just took my morning meds, so maybe they are still getting to the right levels. It really seemed like that second dose yesterday made everything ok.

Of course, now I have to deal with the fallout of the depression... which is scary. And get my life back into some kind of order.

[Unrigged64072835]

I do that as well. It felt like that recently, when I went from mixed to depression in nothing flat. I'm finally getting back to baseline so I'm grateful for that. However, my cycles go from two weeks to a month, so I'm getting things done while I can.

[MagicsMom]

That happened to me as well. Woke up feeling great after a year long depression. Unfortunately for me it didn't last and now I'm rapid cycling.

Keeping fingers crossed that this lasts for you.

[Hbomb0903]

I just can't understand how I felt so great for those few hours last night and now I'm back to feeling unmotivated and scared. I don't feel quite as flat though. I'm hoping to muddle through and get on lamictal. It really helped me last time I was on it and Im not sure why I got off it. Some stupid pdoc's opinion I think, but since my memory also sucks I just can't remember.

[r010159]

Bupropion is quite activating.

[Hbomb0903]

But my brain still feels like I'm confused and I'm not motivated. I am so frustrated. Like I'm almost there????

[Curiosity77]

I've never had a quick switch like that into hypomania, but I have experienced falling into a depression that suddenly. It was like falling off a cliff. Pretty scary

Switch flips - Heck, yeah!

[Hbomb0903]

I swear it makes me feel more hopeless. Like I got a taste and now its right back in the hole. My sleep is even worse than it was, which was not that great. I can't wait to get into the doctor, but I find it hard to even be hopeful right now. Sometimes I feel like there is something about me that wants this misery? Like it's an excuse for why my life hasn't turned out as well as I want it?

Depression/mixed episode talking? I just don't know. I'm at the end of my string and hanging on for what???