[Lobster Hands]

I'll start out by saying that I think I've been having gaps in my memory. Today one of coworkers confronted me (in a positive way) and asked if I was ok. He told me that I had been acting like I had been on cocaine for a week and how I was talking really fast and "sporadically". He also told me that I was talking to myself...(I'm kind of skeptical about the talking to myself part...I don't know though)

Anyways, I remember absolutely none of this. I knew I had my other usual symptoms of mania(no sleep and pleasure/thrill seeking and excessive happiness), but not those. It scares me that I don't know/remember what I was doing.

I was so embarrassed about what he told me, but I just laughed...it was funny to me for some reason. How in the world do I go about this?

[Victoria'smom]

So now that your manic how are you going to calm yourself down?

[TheatreKid]

I remember a couple of my friends knew I was manic before I even realized it during my last manic episode. I had memory gaps too, but I do remember going to a friend's house to hang out with her, talking a mile a minute barely taking a breath, and then it just kind of clicked that I was acting weird and I said something like "I'm so sorry, I just really really NEED to talk right now! Not even about anything, I just NEED to talk." And she just patiently said "I know."

It's kind of hit and miss though. Friends who have had some sort of experience with a friend or relative seem to catch on when I'm manic or depressed, but I work so hard at hiding it that some people have told me after the fact that they thought I was just "happy and excited" or "just sad".

I think before you think about damage control with your friends and coworkers, you should work at catching your manic episode and bringing it under control before it gets dangerous. Meds/psychiatry/meditation/therapy/support groups/friends.... whatever works for you. Call your pdoc. It's MUCH easier to mend fences with the people who watched you crack up if they know you did everything you could to be responsible and help yourself.

[Lobster Hands]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

So now that your manic how are you going to calm yourself down?

Well, to tell you the truth...I don't feel all that manic except for the fact that I don't need to sleep and I'm having, what appears to be, too good of a time.

Back to your question, I have no idea how I will calm myself down. Since I have a pdoc appointment on Friday I'll have to talk about all of this with him I guess.