[OutlawedSpirit]

I know that this sounds weird, but it's sort of true. She is extremely supportive of me, but that almost makes me feel worse. I feel like such a burden to her, she shouldn't have to take care of me like she does. Does anyone get this at all?

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[MagicsMom]

I do. When my husband met me I was a highly successful person with everything going for me except true love. I found that with my now husband and then had a nervous breakdown 2 years later. I feel like a burden to him even though he insists that I'm not.

[BipolaRNurse]

I have a husband who is overwhelmingly supportive, and has been throughout the 34 years we've been together. He's stayed with me through my mood swings, my alcoholic rages and blackouts, all of it. Sometimes he even has to be my caregiver when I'm not managing well or I'm forgetting to take my meds, but he says that's what a husband does. I think the man is a candidate for sainthood.

[wildflowerchild25]

That's why I keep quiet about my struggles. So I don't bother anyone else. But it never goes well for me to do that. On my last hospitalization (two weeks ago) we promised to be completely honest with each other....which is why I suppose he told me about his drug problem. Thank god he did but I think we're going to have to go to couples counseling because both of us are going to be worrying about the other. We can easily get into a bad situation if we don't.

I have been taught from a young age to just put on a happy face or else my mom might disappear into her room for days...it takes a lot to undo that.

But if they love us we are not a burden.

[almondjoy]

Originally Posted by OutlawedSpirit

I know that this sounds weird, but it's sort of true. She is extremely supportive of me, but that almost makes me feel worse. I feel like such a burden to her, she shouldn't have to take care of me like she does. Does anyone get this at all?

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I am in the same boat. I've had episodes where I have said and done horrendous things to my husband, but he has loved me through it and never given up on me. He's taken me to hospital, even deferred college to take care of me as best he can.. He sometimes just says to me "for better or worse" when I say I don't deserve him. And it's true! These are the people who deserve us in our good times. Things will get better.

[crazycatlady_83]

I completely understand! My husband didn't fully understand the diagnosis at first, but he was still there for me. About a month after being diagnosed, I was hospitalized a couple hours away from where I live...it was the first place that got back to the county mental health clinic the sheriffs took me. He brought my son to visit me along with my parents, and then turned around the next day to get me and take me home, after working all day. He has read up and done research to understand what is going on with me. We've had our ups and downs, been close to divorce a couple times, but he has always loved me through all of it. When I get angry and yell and scream at the kids, he will take over so I can just shut down and not be involved in what they're doing at the moment. He takes care of the house and the family when I'm too depressed to get out of bed. I feel like I'm so indebted to him, and there's nothing I could ever do to repay him. And to make me even more of a jerk, I only want to have sex with him about every month or two...thank you Geodon. I also have a hard time saying I love you to him and showing him any kind of affection or loving emotion.

[LUNARMIST7]

A good way to go through life is to think of what you would regret about today, if your spouse died tomorrow. I know there was a time when I didn't treat my spouse the way they deserved to be treated. You married someone because you loved them, if you still love them then you should show them every day. Because life isn't permanent. They could be gone tomorrow.

[BinaryMan]

Originally Posted by OutlawedSpirit

I know that this sounds weird, but it's sort of true. She is extremely supportive of me, but that almost makes me feel worse. I feel like such a burden to her, she shouldn't have to take care of me like she does. Does anyone get this at all?

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Yes, I feel this way right now. My Girlfriend is so incredibly supportive and this makes me feel like such a ***. I have not cleaved to her in four years and still feel like I am meant to be alone. Even as I tell her she should leave me and find someone who isn't falling apart from the inside she continues to care for me and be there for me.

It does make it feel worse because now instead of just dealing with storms of negative emotions I am going though right now I also see her fighting and getting hurt for me when I do not deserve any help at all which which makes me feel very guilty and ashamed.

I really feel like I was built to live alone and that feeling grows so much stronger when people hurt themselves trying to help me. Anyone else feel this way?

[winterglen]

I've had that feeling. Sometimes I feel so bad about myself that I want other people to be cruel to me, because that would justify the way I feel.

I hate that I feel so bad about myself and there's no acceptable reason why I should. It makes me feel like I am the one causing the problem, and that I should have more control over what I feel.