[Dark&twisty3]

My sister and brother-in-law and their massive dog are here to visit for 2 weeks before they move to Thailand. I already feel in prison being forced to live with my parents again, now my perfect sister and her holier than thou husband are making the house completely crowded and making me feel even more alone. I'm in a house full of people I love, but that drive me insane. I need space, I need alone time, I need to be able to watch what I want and listen to what I want without worrying about offending people. Their damn dog is so big and likes to stick his nose in your food and drinks and likes to tackle you and knock you over. My agitation levels are so high that it doesn't take much to push me into being completely pissed off. I love my family, I do. I just don't connect with them. I am in a depressive state, so my head is dark and scary and watching everybody's happiness or feeling left out, or feeling unloved by them like I always have is just making things worse. My family and I have never been that close, and we are working on it, but they have no idea how to deal with me and I am at a loss at how to help them understand my moods and the challenges I face every day. I just need time to breathe...for people to leave me alone and for me to unwind from all the stress of being around so many people constantly. Do any of you feel like this with your families? You love them, but don't know how to connect with them?

[Victoria'smom]

Yes I feel like that with my family.