Triggers

Every summer I always feel this way. Everything, and I mean everything is a trigger for me. My computer, my TV, my lawn mower, my truck, my friends, people in general, the news, breathing, sleeping, being awake, being alive, and etc. It always happens to me every summer. It just gets worse every year.

same with me, only it begins in springtime. noises, doing too much, worrying about weird things like if I mow the lawn, will I run over baby bunnies, did I accidentally start the dishwasher w/one of my cats inside it (I double check the dishwasher almost every time I run it due to this unnatural fear). spring & summer are rough. I calm down more in winter so I love winter

For me, it is winter

Everything is dead, the flowers, the leaves on trees.

In every direction, all I see is death

For me it is heat, bright light, and noise. Year round. I hate it.

Summer here for me does me in, but it starts in Spring ....I think I spend do much of winter cooped up with the cold and wet weather, often sick with pneaumonia, that I cant wait to get outside. So I start making to do lists. I can't stand things getting wet, so each time it rains Im always checking where there is water. I am sure its part of the OCD.

Spring mowing the grass is huge trigger cause it reminds me that boyh my teenagers have left and there is so much on my to do list. So I start working and working and working. Everything outside has to be neat otherwise I stress about it. Autumn its the leaves, winter its the water, spring the grass and dumtmer is fix everything time. Summer definitely worst.....maybe cause add occasionally to mix alcohol when hot?

The only stable I know it the one horses live in. looking at my yearly cycles.... (and i think even normal people have them) my wife is a patient woman!

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