[Cocinella]

Hello all!

I am writting down my experiences when being a bit hypomanic.

Well before I was on mood stabliizator I was really happy when I had "happy" moments, hyperactive ones, cus then I was able to do A LOT in a short time, before the "bad mood" (which was more often) strucked me again.

Now it's kinnda weird. I have this happy feelings quite often. Last week they were present for about 3 days, and yesterday also, was really annoying. Why?

Well sure, you feel like your on a top of the world, flying like a bird, careless and super happy. But together with that, I have no feelings towards people and things I usually loved. Like family, my BF, I somehow feel sorry for them, and think I am abowe all them. I mean HELLO??!

So, my experience, don't like the "soft" manic things. Cus I know it's not me. If someone would say your BD dumbed you when I am hypomanic or depressed, My reaction would be, oh....ok. So what? Getting the picture

So, I just want ME back. ME, ME, ME, with all her faults, want to feel my body, myself, my hapiness doing small things in life. I want to live. I hope, I am getting there slowly.

Thanks for reading my post! You all have a good day

[Dix888]

You are, like all of us, a complicated human being. So the "real you" is a mixture of many parts. Happy, sad, up, down, interests etc. You will get there!

[Cocinella]

How well said Dix haha I do think living with a mental illness or not, every human is complicated, how the mind and brain works is a mistery and I think we will never be able to figure both out.

I do hope I'll get better soon. Everyone says I'm impatient, but I just want to live already. Had a great afternoon yesterday and I can't wait for more of that to come, when I will be me again finaly!

Take care!

Happy to hear you had a good afternoon yesterday! Peaceful days are always a nice and pleasant surprise when dealing with a mood disorder.

[Cocinella]

Blwi you are totally right, it is great to feel normal again only if it's just for few hours it gives you the energy not to stop fighting to get your life back on tracks.

Thank you for the kind words!