[tigersassy]

So I've decided that I HATE my job. It's not even the work I do. It's that my store manager and HR manager are lying, conniving, donkeys. It was brought to my attention that one of the 2 of them called me a vindictive liar in front of another person. I got in trouble for taking issues outside of the store because they weren't being addressed by anyone in management. Now everyone is trying to cover up a department managers butt because she effed up. She sold something that someone else bought. I'm so over this b.s. I also got told I'm not allowed to work at the sales desks if I'm not in the department. I'm not technically in any department. I also don't have any where to work with access to a computer which a lot of my job requires. I'm ready to quit, but I can't. I need the money and I need something to keep me up and going. I am so over this.
I don't know if I'm just being overly emotional about this, but I don't think I am. I want to make my thoughts stop racing round my head when I'm awake. When I'm asleep I'm having crazy dreams. I can't focus. I'm debating calling Pdoc office to see if they can see me next month or if they've got someone I can talk to because these meds aren't helping. I can't afford my antidepressant for much longer. I'm anxious I feel like my insides are vibrating against my skin.
Sorry this is everywhere. There is more but I've got to go back to work now.

Tig

[Victoria'smom]

I don't think you're over reacting but I would call your pdoc and talk to your t.

[tigersassy]

I'm worried about not being able to afford t and Pdoc. I'm stressed about all this. Grrrrrr..... precede to pound head against brick wall. FML

Tig

[Victoria'smom]

Can you go to a community mental health center?

[tigersassy]

I have insurance through work. I work full time. The community health center doesn't accept insurance. And I apparently make a little too much for any assistance of any kind. I feel like there's going to be some sort of brick wall in front of me. Be it my spending too much or depression. This feeling is why I quit my last job and therapy and Pdoc. It's time for a change up and move to a new state with a new job. I can't do that though. I think it's a drinking night.

Tig