[Ms.Wildside]

So my boyfriend is super supportive in all ways. We live together and he pretty much pays for my existence and says he likes to take care of me so it doesn't bother him. Honestly I feel horrible because I currently only work occasionally (luckily my profession allows me to make my own schedule.) and I help out whenever I can. I do my best to keep our place clean although sometimes that is a struggle, and I am always making baked goodies and I cook a lot. I got lucky that my boyfriend also enjoys cooking and cleaning so on my down days he doesn't mind stepping in to do those things. We have been talking about getting a house but it would be tough with just his income. I just feel like if I worked more we could have not necessarily a better life but an easier one. I have tried to push myself to work more but there are so many times I cannot leave my bed or couch let alone the apartment. I don't know what to do, I feel so worthless right now. I wish I could offer more financial support in our relationship. Not sure if this is even worthy of being posted but I have to know if anyone else has this issue.

[~Christina]

Do you have a Pdoc ? maybe you need medication or maybe you just need a Therapist to help you work through how you feel and to stop feeling so bad about yourself.

You can feel better it just takes work .

Welcome to Pc

I can relate. I was much the same. Then I realised we could never live together on his income alone. So we decided to break it off because it just wasnt going to work long term, I've tried working more and every single time it ends me up hospitalized. Now I have lost his support with very little income myself. I've had 10 years of therapy, meds, inpatient, alternative treatments and therapy and nothing has helped. I think I need to accept that this is my life.

[Serra27]

No need to tell your profession if you do not want to disclose that info but is there any possibilities of online work? Just a thought. I relate completely feeling worthless, but the fact you care, and want to try and help, says more than you think. If you haven't told your significant other about what you posted, I recommend it. He would appreciate the effort.