As I struggle to comprehend this disease and my treatment, I wanted to offer something positive to the members here on this forum, especially those who work in this field.

I'm due at my therapist tomorrow. Even though I usually have anxiety trying to decide just what to discuss with him, my mood usually lifts because everyone here as well as what I read is convincing me more every day that my therapist is truly trying to help me and for that I am grateful. Dang, I get emotional just writing that.

Even though I always thought I did a good job of hiding it through the years, it's really nice to know that everyone is truly trying to help me instead of out to get me. It's also nice to know that it's not good or normal to go around with a lot of dark anger trapped back deep inside the subconscious mind.

Having said that, who knows what tomorrow brings, or how I may be in 5 minutes from now.

[Skitz13]

Thank you for that. I know you've been struggling and am glad to hear that you are having a little more trust in the people who are trying to help you and that you have a little more awareness of what this disorder does.

Most mental health professionals do care and do what they do because they want to help and make a difference.

[Victoria'smom]

You haven't been in therapy long, of course you have anxiety and worry about his intentions. Your trusting someone with your life that you really don't know and its hard. The ability to trust and know that its not to their advantage to take advantage of you takes time. My current therapist I've been with 3+ years and it took a crisis to trust her. I really had no other choice.

I'm really glad you found PC.

Thanks ya'll. I am so happy for my friends here. Best friends I have ever had thus far in my life.