this permanent diabolical mismatch!

I wake I sleep I crash in a heap...!

I walk away from the things I forgot about?

...and yet I can recall exactly why I was afraid...

and I was running really freaking fast!

..there is never any time to collect and comfort....

and the time for forgiveness is equidistant!

there is a space to find myself falling even more apart...

my fingers grip my arms and my face moves way too awkward...

...my life may as well be death!

there is nothing myself has in common with the exact opposite of me...

I can pretend and pretend even more...and the more I do this?...

the more undone I become and confusion is not my dearest friend...

I wish to all spiritual possibilities...

that I am not me

I cannot identify my purpose?

the more life I live?

the closer I get to the death I understand...

and I will be fine with this understanding

...I am impatient to locate this...

it's the most beautiful experience I cannot wait to long

Hello, dubblemonkey. Sorry, have no idea what to say. Nonetheless, I wish you well.

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its ok...

thanks !...but you can be forgiven...

for your inability to overwhelm anybody..