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Jul 31, 2014, 12:14 PM
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I've been on PC for nearly 3 years now (I just have a new account), but I am not native to this thread. I probably should have been on here before, but still a little in denial that I have bipolar disorder. I might not belong in this forum.
I have a feeling that I'm pissing everyone off with my mood swings (I guess you can call it that). Certain things change the way I feel, like if I'm doing something with my family, doing something that's enjoyable, and maladaptive day dreaming (which is one that can definitely spike my mood). Even though a have these flux of highs (but not to the point where I feel elated or energetic), a majority of the time I am in a severe depressive mood (due to really low self esteem, and past issues). I've been thinking of death again lately and how much I don't want to live anymore. I'm on medications in the morning and night. When I pop these pills into my mouth, I automatically feel neutral (not really happy, and not as depressive). Then give it a couple of hours later and the pills wear off and my night meds come along. Again I feel neutral, until the next morning. I wasn't diagnosed bi-polar until after I was transferred to a residential treatment center from my third stay in a psychiatric hospital. Records showed up to my new therapist, and they declared I had bipolar disorder. They didn't tell me this when I was in the psych ward after I took another test to be revaluated. They said I had OCD, but never mentioned bipolar disorder. I have a feeling that this is all due to maladaptive daydreaming, but I won't go into ranting detail about it. I'll just go with what the doctor says for now, and hope that more research can be done in the future. |
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Jul 31, 2014, 03:13 PM
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well welcome to the bipolar forum. bipolar takes many forms. some people are more depressed and don't have many highs. I myself don't have super high highs, I can still sleep when I am manic, I just talk a lot faster and spend a lot of money but I don't have a lot of the more common sypmtoms. read around and you will probably find something in common with others.
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Jul 31, 2014, 03:15 PM
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Welcome to the BP forum
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Jul 31, 2014, 06:36 PM
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Welcome to this forum! Accepting a particular diagnosis is hard. And it still may not be the right one for you. But of course you know you're welcome to check out our stories and see if any ring true.
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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Jul 31, 2014, 09:16 PM
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Welcome!
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***** Every finger in the room is pointing at me I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now Tori Amos ~ Crucify Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder |
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Jul 31, 2014, 10:25 PM
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Welcome. This is an extreme forum with a wide spectrum of people, moods and behaviors. We are a colorful bunch!
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Bipolar 1 ~ 300mg Lamictal, 4mg Ativan
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