[otroo]

Well I was pretty stable since April until the last 3 or 4 weeks ago. About four weeks ago my wife wanted to watch a video on FB but would not click on the link so I figured I would let her watch it on my phone so I clicked on it and it took you to a site that want you to grant FB access and I said no way. Well that night I felt supper guilty about not being able to let her watch it. I started having racing thoughts about this guilt so I ended up taking a prn to calm me down well I had about four of these panic attacks that week and ended up having to take more prns. I have been posting stupid stuff on post elsewhere on this forum one about men having disgusting beards and I responded with I like my ladies clean shaven which I should not have posted. I am not able to sleep anymore even taking my sleeping pills. Since Friday of last week I have only slept like 13 hours and most of that was from last night when I took double my sleeping pills which is my prescribed amount I took double my prn I slept real good but I can tell you I will be up all night tonight.
I quit drinking about five months ago and the last time I smoked pot was 4/20/14. Oh another thing that is bugging me is when people on here when they say sorry for another post or sorry for the rant. You people have no reason to say sorry to anyone for what you post cause this is what this forum is for us to do post away people pot till your hearts content and have no shame in your game.

[otroo]

I forgot to say my pdoc is on vacation this week and I will calling first thing in the morning. Oh and I really like this forum.

[~Christina]

I will say Im sorry you are having such a tough time .. The lack of sleep your dealing with is a terrible thing.... I suffer the same ...

Even if you dont sleep at least lay in bed and try meditation or breathing exercises..

I hope you are able to get with your Pdoc and see what can be done to ease all these problems.

Good luck

[Love&Toil]

Look we are all entitled to our opinions here and we don't all have to like the same things or cope the same way. I hope you are feeling better soon as I know how much panic attacks suck.

[littlemiss44]

Sorry yr struggling so much lately. I'm sure the lack of sleep isn't helping you very much either. I know about panic attacks...I had a bad one this week. Just out of the blue. I too had to take my prn just to calm down. Good for you for giving up alcohol. I have it up three years ago and feel so clear minded. Although u do miss how I felt happy while drunk. That is the main reason I drank...living with bp depression is hell and I would drink to temporarily feel good. Problem was it made my meds not work as they are suppose to. I hope you get some good rest.

[otroo]

I slept from 11:30 to 6:45 this morning. I got up went and bought iced coffee for my wife and me I went and picked her up from work. I am now leaving to go help the in laws out with a water line problem. I am then going to go over and mow my parents lawn. I am looking forward to today.

[~Christina]

Im glad to see your having a much better day .. Getting a good amount of sleep is so very important for Bp's ..

Enjoy your day

[otroo]

Thanks. I just need to find the right sleeping pill.