I got married! (and learned a lot...)

Aug 16, 2014, 11:05 PM

I guess this is just a little update...
On july 30 I cheated on my boyfriend who was out of town then. Looking back, this week was probably the highest I've ever been (not that that's an excuse...). On August 3rd the man with whom I cheated and I decided to get married - yes, this was a completely insane idea most definitely fueled by (hypo)manic electricity. However, I did come down a few days later and found myself hopelessly in love nevertheless. My boyfriend and I broke up and yesterday I eloped with my now-husband!

I'm posting this because I've learned an incredibly valuable lesson through this crazy turn of events - that is, I now truly understand the difference between (hypo)mania and happiness (or 'brain-induced' vs. life-induced). I'm joyful today in a way that is peaceful, stable, secure, silent...I don't feel impulsive at all, just totally warm and happy (what I presume most everyone feels when in the 'honeymoon' phase of love). There is such an obvious contrast between this and the sort of amped up frenzied ecstasy I feel when up - which is amazing and great in its own way, but not sustainable over time...

Anyways, I think this has helped me come to terms with bipolar in a way. Learning this about myself with the person I'm now with I think will prove to be a very significant dimension of our bond (as he's already witnessed me high, low, stable).

I just wanted to share that with you all

Thanks for listening

gma45 · Aug 16, 2014, 11:19 PM

Congratulations! I bet your old boy friend was a bit in shock with the turn of events. I am glad that you have come to an understanding about being bipolar, that is awesome. Sounds like things will work out fine. I wish you the best.

Aug 17, 2014, 02:09 AM

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Originally Posted by thepterodactyl

I guess this is just a little update...
On july 30 I cheated on my boyfriend who was out of town then. Looking back, this week was probably the highest I've ever been (not that that's an excuse...). On August 3rd the man with whom I cheated and I decided to get married - yes, this was a completely insane idea most definitely fueled by (hypo)manic electricity. However, I did come down a few days later and found myself hopelessly in love nevertheless. My boyfriend and I broke up and yesterday I eloped with my now-husband!

I'm posting this because I've learned an incredibly valuable lesson through this crazy turn of events - that is, I now truly understand the difference between (hypo)mania and happiness (or 'brain-induced' vs. life-induced). I'm joyful today in a way that is peaceful, stable, secure, silent...I don't feel impulsive at all, just totally warm and happy (what I presume most everyone feels when in the 'honeymoon' phase of love). There is such an obvious contrast between this and the sort of amped up frenzied ecstasy I feel when up - which is amazing and great in its own way, but not sustainable over time...

Anyways, I think this has helped me come to terms with bipolar in a way. Learning this about myself with the person I'm now with I think will prove to be a very significant dimension of our bond (as he's already witnessed me high, low, stable).

I just wanted to share that with you all

Thanks for listening

Very happy for you

Just freak out and make every minute count !