[ozzy1313]

I don't drink very often, but when I do go out with the intention of getting drunk it never ends well (duh).

Went out with the hubby for our 17th anniversary last night. Woke up today in the bathroom, with puke on the floor, and a chair turned on it's side. I have no memories except of the feeling that hubby was very upset with me (another duh)

I am now so depressed- the darkness and depression the day after drinking is horrible. As is not knowing what I did. Why did I ruin what was a wonderful date night? I don't like myself very much right now.

[cmorales]

I used to drink a lot to deal with my depression. When I "quit" (meaning when I realized that drinking everyday was no longer working and just making the depression worse), I crashed hard into a lethargic depression that lasted for a few months.

I came to realize that a huge part of that depression was being alone with my thoughts. Knowing (or, in many cases, having heard) what I had done over those years, especially the last few months when it was really bad; knowing (or, again, having heard) how I treated the people around me made me feel ashamed, embarrassed and unworthy of continuing on.

I don't know if it will help you, but my old therapist told me about that self-compassion stuff. (If you haven't heard of it, look it up, it's quite interesting and helpful.) It might have helped me out a bit back then when I was going through that post-boozing depression and it might help you get through yours... if only just a little bit.

People with BP often have a rough relationship with alcohol (as many of us know) and yet, we continue imbibe at times, hoping something has changed since the last time. We are just human. We all slip up from time to time.

[pawn78]

Originally Posted by ozzy1313

I don't drink very often, but when I do go out with the intention of getting drunk it never ends well (duh).

Went out with the hubby for our 17th anniversary last night. Woke up today in the bathroom, with puke on the floor, and a chair turned on it's side. I have no memories except of the feeling that hubby was very upset with me (another duh)

I am now so depressed- the darkness and depression the day after drinking is horrible. As is not knowing what I did. Why did I ruin what was a wonderful date night? I don't like myself very much right now.

That happened to me on christmas eve last year. I was in a depression, I decided to have a few drinks christmas eve and I ended up blacking out, throwing up and waking up late. My wife was pissed!!!
I haven't hardly touched hard liquor since!

[ozzy1313]

I'm wasn't even in a depressed state yesterday-

I think I just self sabotage myself sometimes- although I have no idea why. We were having such a nice night...I wish I hadn't f***ed it up.

Why do I make the same mistakes over and over again...ugh

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by ozzy1313

I'm wasn't even in a depressed state yesterday-

I think I just self sabotage myself sometimes- although I have no idea why. We were having such a nice night...I wish I hadn't f***ed it up.

Why do I make the same mistakes over and over again...ugh

If you feel like your making the same mistakes over and over again .. Then find the problems and remove them from you life..Yeah it take work, often very hard work but its worth it in the end when you realize your doing much better.

If drinking is causing you more harm than good then stop drinking period.

I hope your feeling better soon , remember drink lots of water today to rehydrate and flush the alcohol out

[Angry1541]

As a recovering alcoholic, I could go on and on about the standard AA language and stuff, but I don't believe that people who drink to excess occasionally are alcoholics...So I will get that out of the way.

I will say, that alcohol to excess has MAJOR potential to trigger a hypo/manic or depressive episode.

For a while I attended meetings to help me get through the first part of quitting drinking...for like 6 months I did meetings maybe. But eventually I came to realize that drinking for me was really a way to deal with my varying mental states....and when I started to accept them and treat them appropriately, I no longer needed to drink to handle or mask them.

I don't drink at all any more, because in 'self-medicating' in the past, I developed alcoholism and know that one would turn into a dozen....and not just for the one night...but every night until I hit bottom again...or had a major episode..whichever can first.

Just my two cents....

If you can handle an occasional drunk without too much fallout...then do it...and enjoy....if drinking comes with so much fallout that you it impacts your moods and you don't want that to happen, then stop....period.

[vjdragonfly]

If limiting yourself to alcohol is not an option, maybe thinking about not drinking is a good idea. Talk to your honey and try to smooth it out. Good luck to you

[tipper1492]

I gave up all alcohol, pot, and cigs more than a year ago. I had to in order to stay married. Alcohol also ruined what my new medications were intended for. I'm happier, and being with family who drink, within limits, does not cause me to want to join them, or feel the need I need it. Of course those feelings take time, but for me a year or less. But I rarely drank to the point of passing out, but I certainly tide on big ones with both pot, whiskey, and smoking one cig after another. Not much over one or two years ago, Bella Coola, B.C.) I spent over a month alone at my cabin next to the Bella Coola River in rain forest, and I purchased lots of Crown Royal whiskey, and the local Newhawk Indians provided me with good pot. Coming home, driving the 3,000 miles by myself, without any sleep what-so-ever, and 56.5 hours driving, got home. Soon after my wife had me go see a psychiatrist, which I think saved my life, and marriage. My wife had had enough. She fully knew I needed a psychiatrist, and soon.

[loophole]

Alcahol will majorly mess with your meds... I suppose it depends on the person to some extent... but every pdoc I been to that's a big no no.. on my 3rd now so heard it more then once... I tried over a year ago.... was very bad with not much alcahol. ..