Boring me

I seem to be a people magnet when Im manic. Im fun to be around. I love life and feel so good. What a high.

I found the perfect medication combo for me and slowly I became who I was meant to be. Boring. Normal. Blah. Not the go go go I once way. god fore bid....should I dare say it???? I feel like a grown up!!!!! How bad does that stink?

It wasn't an over night change. It was a painful change. Like growing pains.

Dont get me wrong, Im still me. Im just a normal me.

I am glad to hear you feel more normal. I know what you mean. But who said adults always need to be boring?

I’ve had the same thing happen to me. I used to be the manic life of the party…even if I had to make my own party. I was also was a people magnet, I was fun to be around, never knew what would come out of my mouth next, literally dancing on the table. Unfortunately, I was also a self-destructive drug addicted alcoholic mess. Meds straightened me out, but the straight me is a total stick in the mud, unsociable to the point of being recluse. I’ve been screwing with my meds for two years trying to find a middle ground to no avail. I miss the old days and the old me, but I know I can never go back. It’s very depressing. Good luck getting used to the “new you”.

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