Hate this

After a few halfway decent days the depression and hopelessness is back. I don't want to deal with things anymore. It would be a good day to "check out of this world. No fight left in me. Seeing psychiatrist in the morning. Weekly visits are getting costly even with insurance. Just have to hold on till morning. On the bright side I've lost 21lbs in the last month. Take care everyone !!!

I'm sorry to hear that you are having such a bad day. I feel the same way! I have been okay, well decent, the last few days. But today I woke up and was so depressed, I also missed my Drs appointment because I couldn't get out of bed. It was terrible. So, you are not alone. Please don't ever feel like you want to check out. We all go through this...I was just diagnosed with Bipolar a week ago! I have been living with these ups and downs for years and didn't know what was wrong with me. But I do have hope that with the right medication, even though I am afraid of switching meds, I will start to get my life back. But I know, that I may still have these bad days! I'm scared. But by joining this forum, that I just found today, I hope it helps me feel less alone. Congrats on the weight loss, as long as it was a healthy loss. Take care of yourself and good luck at your Drs appointment tomorrow.

Hello Jayv: I hope your appointment with your psychiatrist is helpful to you. Be as honest as you can about what's going on with you. I know allot of us tend to put on a happy face almost reflexively when we meet with our pdoc's. I know I do. But this is not really helping matters.

I take it, from what you wrote, losing 21 lbs. in the past month is a good thing. Assuming that you were, perhaps, carrying too much weight, then losing 21 lbs. in a month is a real accomplishment & something to feel proud of.

For most of us who struggle with depression in it's various forms, the low points just seem to come-&-go. We just have to learn to hold on while they're with us & know they will pass sooner or later. Those feelings of having no more energy to fight are the depression whispering in your ear, so to speak. It is possible to learn to acknowledge them, but not buy into what they're whispering. My best wishes to you...

Thank you. The weight loss is good but, it's because I can't eat. Afraid of everyone in the house going to bed. These are the strongest feelings I've ever had about ending it. I better say something

One thing we remind each other here is that bipolar lies to you.
Sometimes it tells you it's okay to drain your bank account, sometimes it tells you to put a belt around your neck and end it all.
But those are just lies. Hold on until it passes.

The most important thing my therapist says to me is to take care of me. If I'm depressed be depressed and know that it will change and it won't last forever. I hope your appointment goes well. I'm always suspicious of my really good days cause just like the depression they don't last either. Feels like a never stopping circle.