[BassChick2781]

I drive down a fog-filled, dark, empty road. I feel nothing. Am I alive? I find myself thinking back on my day. Was it real? Am I truly living, or am I playing some sort of part in someone's screwed up play? I say my lines, I dance my dance, I sing my song. And for what? At the end of the day, I ask myself what it all means. If I wake up tomorrow, will I simply play another part? Is everyone watching? Is everyone laughing when I screw up? Gawking at my worthlessness? Finding amusement in my sorrows? I feel as though I am not real. I'm simply created for the amusement of others. Or are they real? What is real? Am I still dreaming? Will I ever wake up? What does it feel like to be awake? What does it feel like to be alive? Does it feel empty? Does it feel bland? Does it feel worthless? Does it feel like nothing? I feel like nothing. I feel worthless.

[Crazy Hitch]

Sorry you are going through this void it feels awful. I sometimes go through phases of feeling like I'm watching my life in the 3rd person as if I'm not in it. Like watching myself in a movie. Only thing I do during these phases is to try to stop my mind from wondering about the past or future and force myself to concentrate on the extreme here and right now and drown out the noises. Doesn't always work and sometimes it does but it can give me temporary respite when I feel overwhelmed.