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So I just came out of yet another bad mania. I ended up in the hospital.
I was in a depression so I started messing with my meds. I went into a fabulous, wonderful hypo. Got so much done. Didn't do anything too risky. Well it turned on me like it always does and at first I was fine not sleeping. But then the anger, hostility, remorse, despair crying spells, suicidal thoughts came in along with the not sleeping. So I frantically increased some meds. Ended up going through 2 wks of he'll. Only sleeping 2 hrs a night. Was taking massive amounts of doxepin and visteral to sleep. Saw my psych nurse, she was shaken up and very upset. She said she was amazed I was still alive. I almost od'ed. ![]() AND I'M ALREADY MISSING HYPOS!!! Do I just have a really high tolerance for pain? Do I need to go through a grieving process? How do I learn to just be happy being stable? |
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hypomania is fine for me...IF, BIG IF,... I get sleep. If I get manic to the point of sleeping less than 5 hours/night, it is not good for me and I try to come down.
But as long as I get sleep, I can be hypo and happy for weeks on end.
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Bipolar 1 ~ 300mg Lamictal, 4mg Ativan
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I think you have to being depressed, since once you've experienced a euphoric mania, there's no middle, everything else is a low.
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It's hard bc I've experienced euphoric manias since my twenties, hard to give up...
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I miss hypomania something fierce. If there was a way I could keep it while never being depressed or full-on manic, I'd do it in a heartbeat. But that's true of many of us, and NOBODY can do it. Otherwise the drug market would crash and you'd have a bunch of happy, productive, optimistic people running around. Can't have that. LOL
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DX: Bipolar 1 Anxiety Tardive dyskinesia Mild cognitive impairment RX: Celexa 20 mg Gabapentin 1200 mg Geodon 40 mg AM, 60 mg PM Klonopin 0.5 mg PRN Lamictal 500 mg Levothyroxine 125 mcg (rx'd for depression) Trazodone 150 mg Zyprexa 7.5 mg Please come visit me @ http://bpnurse.com |
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Anyway, I need to grieve it I think. Thanks for ur response. ![]() |
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I think maybe I also need to realize that I don't just have hypos. The severe depressions and mixed states come along with it...
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Amazing. I really thought it was just me that kinda loved hypos. I actually miss them but know how bad it can be for everyone around me...
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Oh yeah, you're not alone in only wanting Julia. I just wish I knew how to get over them, ya know?
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