[LilacLime]

I was suppose to take them two hours ago, but I was busy finishing this essay and I still have about an hours worth of math homework and therapy in the morning at 9 am. I really really don't want to take my meds as they are going to make me really tired and I'll have to sleep, and I just can't tonight. Would it be so awful if I didn't? Ugh sorry I just didn't no were else to put this because I have no support system and I'm awful. I'm sorry.

[HALLIEBETH87]

Be kind to yourself. Take responsibility for your health and do what you should to be healthy.

[Yoda]

Even if you don't have your assignment done you need sleep to function. It isn't good for your body or brain to be sleep deprived.

[cryingontheinside]

I havent been taking my meds either

[sui generis]

Originally Posted by LilacLime

I was suppose to take them two hours ago, but I was busy finishing this essay and I still have about an hours worth of math homework and therapy in the morning at 9 am. I really really don't want to take my meds as they are going to make me really tired and I'll have to sleep, and I just can't tonight. Would it be so awful if I didn't? Ugh sorry I just didn't no were else to put this because I have no support system and I'm awful. I'm sorry.

Hmm not sure how long ago you wrote this so I hope I'm not too late to the party When is your essay due and maths homework? If it's not due tomorrow, take your meds and go to sleep. I find it's better to go to sleep and continue the next day rather than power through and do a crap job of it. If it is due tomorrow... What time? Figure out which one is more important, maths or essay, go to bed and finish whichever one tomorrow before the time it's due.

Therapy is important so you should be rested for that

If you end up skipping your meds, look, it's not the worst thing in the world. It's not the best either but I think many of us here have done it at some point or another and you're not "awful" for doing so. Meds can be frustating (talk to your pdoc about it?). Not taking your meds could potentially make you feel like crap tomorrow though and it's not good for your body and mind to skip meds repeatedly (not saying you do that but...keep it in mind).

Let us know how it goes!

[Tucson]

I think you are looking for reasons NOT to take your meds. I understand this is an individual's choice. Perhaps this is all that needs to be said about it.

[LilacLime]

I finished my essay and took half the dosage of my meds. At least it's better than nothing and this way I can still actually wake up after little sleep to drive to my session. I also realized that I will have time to do my homework after my session, but before my class. Somehow my brain forgot that I had that time. So I think criss as been averted mostly now.

This is only my second week on meds so all of this is still new. I also really dislike my pdoc so that doesn't help, but I'm still hoping that the meds will help even though right now they just make me tired which I hate. My T wants me to give it at least two months before I give up, so that's what I'm doing. I just didn't think it would be so difficult! I'll probably update again tomorrow after my session because I'm really tired and not entirely sure I'm writing coherent thoughts. Thanks for the support everyone

[LilacLime]

Originally Posted by Tucson

I think you are looking for reasons NOT to take your meds. I understand this is an individual's choice. Perhaps this is all that needs to be said about it.

I think this was very wise of you to say. I guess I was in a bit of denial about not wanting to take them. I'm just still not convinced they work and they make me really tired and I need to be awake and functioning. I did take half the dose, so I feel slightly better than if I skip it entirely. I'm still trying to give them a little more time before I abandon them completely.

[Tucson]

Originally Posted by LilacLime

I think this was very wise of you to say. I guess I was in a bit of denial about not wanting to take them. I'm just still not convinced they work and they make me really tired and I need to be awake and functioning. I did take half the dose, so I feel slightly better than if I skip it entirely. I'm still trying to give them a little more time before I abandon them completely.

Hang in there! I know meds can be a real pain with no end in sight. Welcome to the merry-go-round!

[HALLIEBETH87]

I think we've all been there. That's why I said take responsibility for you! ��

[Disorder7]

I do the same thing sometimes. I'll skip them when I want to feel energized.

But then usually the panic attacks return and I'm quickly reminded of why I'm on them in the first place.