[Skitz13]

Hi all.

I haven't been around much. Things seem to be going really well. I'm in a fairly new relationship and my symptoms seem to have gone away but are now back. Ups and downs, suicidal at times, no interest in anything, quiet, don't really have much to say to anyone.

I guess in my mind I really thought that this relationship would "cure" me but I guess not.

I'm very discouraged once again. So tired of the battle and trying to pretend everything's great.

[Sprite22]

Life never stays on a one way path to happiness. Hope you have a doctor you can go too.

[~Christina]

I've missed seeing you here But I am sorry that your dealing with the mood swings... Try to ground yourself ..You have been doing well, enjoying this relationship !

You will cycle out of this, it always cycles .

See your Pdoc and use all your coping skills

[lilypup]

Yes, it always cycles. And if you are like me, your immediate outside circumstances have little to do with it. Hope your relationship partner is supportive and that you are feeling better soon. Hugs.

[tomorrowisanewday]

Really you cannot rely on a relationship to cure you. Been there, tried that. Failed miserably and ended trying to kill myself. You can only rely on yourself to maintain your health. You definitely need a support system but no body is going to cure you. You're the one that fights and relying on someone else is a scapegoat way to go about it.
Trust me, I know it gets tiring. I know. It is reallllly ****ing hard. I don't discount that at all because it's simply true. But at the same time, while a relationship cannot cure you you can use it as an excuse.
Not as reason. Don't put that person in charge of your well being because they cannot be responsible for you. That is unfair to them. It is unfair to you.
Use them as an excuse. Meaning if they weren't there you could very well find another excuse but they are there so they can provide a very good excuse for now.
You will always have bad days even if you're stable. There will always be bad moment. That is just life. We may experience them a little more, or a lot more, intense than everyone else but it is just life. Life goes on. You go on. You can go on.
I'm not going to say don't pretend because god knows I do. I save face. None of my friends know my struggle, not even my boyfriend (though it's getting to point where he's noticing things and I will have to tell him).
But understand that there is always tomorrow. Emotions, even though they really honest to god don't feel like it, they WILL end. They WILL subside. It WILL stop. It might start up again. But at some point everything stops. There is always tomorrow. Tomorrow may be better. It might not. But there is HOPE. Tomorrow may better. Hold onto that. Even when you're crying yourself raw or you're laying in bed apathetic or whatever. At some point that exactly feeling will end. Tomorrow it may end.

[Crazy Hitch]

New relationships are wonderful at producing happy chemical hormones as we feel a connection to our new partner.

But unfortunately these happy hormones don't last forever hence you're feeling even more than a crash and burn.

The Relationship wouldn't have cured you per say but could have initially alleviated some symptoms.

Sorry you're feeling this way.