Does anyone else

Does anyone else go through phases with their spiritual views? I've noticed some in myself baseline I'm not very spiritual. More like our hearts will guide us type beliefs. When I'm manic I can go two ways Wicca or obsessive Christian. Kindda contradicts itself right? And last but not least when I'm depressed I appear as an atheist. There is no God and what happened is all because of you and your choices.
Am I the only one like this? I don't think I could comfortably discuss this with my wife, Pdoc, therapist, or irl person with bipolar.

Hi tigersassy, I have had somewhat similar experiences. When I'm not depressed I consider myself a spiritual person-- not religious, but spiritual. I draw on several traditions, including Celtic and Hindu lore, Christianity, and to a lesser extent some others. When I'm depressed I lose touch with my spiritual nature-- and that to me is the worst thing about depression. I don't become atheist, I simply can't connect as I usually can to the greater. When I'm hypomanic my spiritual interests tend to become obsessive. I spend a lot of time "seeking truth" in my hypomanic states, but rarely find any. Hope this helps.

Thanks Mountainbard. I understand what you mean. It makes sense, and I'm not sure if my depression might be something similar to yours. I continue appearing Christian to a certain point, but inside I deny everything.

I am christian but when I am in depressed state which is often I have a hard time connecting which causes me more distress. I feel like my beliefs should bring me comfort and when they don't I feel like I have failed. Just me

Yeah, I associate my baseline with feeling more atheistic and mania with feeling more "spiritual", but I don't feel atheism is a bad thing for me. In my experience, science, critical thinking, and skepticism has helped out more then religion or spirituality. It's no doubt different for other people, and we all need to do what's best for us.

i've always been fixed in my views of things.

always

when it comes to things like religion, it's a tough subject to me... i have my belief, everyone else has theirs. and as far as i'm concerned, that's that

Nope. I don't believe in fairy tales, regardless of mood. But I've always held my convictions pretty strongly. When I was a believer, that faith also never waivered with mood.

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I'm atheist but I've had some fun delusions based in Bible facts.

Yes but not in a religiousity sense. During my darkest moments, when everything else has failed me, I immerse myself in traditional Catholic prayer - and in solitude. It's usually my last resort. I don't know know how it works but it saved my life many times.

My religious beliefs vary according to my moods. A few years ago i had a religious mania and went to church four times in one week! I just really liked Church. I'm depressed most of the time and don't go to church at all.

I've been officially atheist for most of my adult life. But i DO find the idea of God comforting so i allow myself to indulge in religious thoughts and prayers. I'm sure it seems contradictory or even hypocritical, but i put it this way: my rational self is an atheist, but my emotional self is a believer.

I was raised Roman Catholic and i really like mass. All the prayers that haven't changed since i was a kid and the joyous hyms, parables, ceremonies and rituals. I'm often manic in the Spring so it coincides with Easter -- such a fantastic time for church. It feels GOOD to thank God for good things that happen in my life. I think a lot of religious sentiment is really worthwhile. I take what i like and leave the rest.

I guess i am somewhat of a Convenient Catholic!

My belief in the afterlife and higher beings flip as quickly as my mood swings.

At one extreme during a manic episode when I was going to church every Sunday I believed it was the second coming and I could hear the angels music and they were all coming out of the sky. Laugh.

In a normal mood state I'd like to consider myself Christian.

I hate to admit it but in my darkest hours I'm atheist or agnostic at the best of times.

I sure flip flop on that myself. I do have a God in my life...just a tad different view then most churches, I also know how much I try to grab my God...when I am most ill.