new to group..going rough

Hello
So 4 weeks ago i was going manic as i titrated down on my meds without my pdocz knowledge. I ended up not sleeping or eating for a week then went full blown crazy the next.
After hosp i talked my pdoc into taking me off seroquel and put on Abilify. Well the depression that has kicked in is horrendous and many many thoughts of death accompany my mood. I don't know if this is just the natural course after the manic episode or is it the Abilify. .

Seems most often its a big crash and burn after a Manic high.. Check with your Pdoc maybe Abilify isnt the med for you.

Welcome to PC

Welcome to Psych Central, jacky. I agree with Christina-- checking in with your pdoc would be a good thing to do. In my own experience depression always follows a hypomanic episode. The Abilify, if it's not enough to lift you out of depression, shouldn't exacerbate it. But you'll definitely want to talk to your pdoc about that as well.

I hear ya loud and clear. I'm just starting to go down this road. I knew for years something wasn't right with me. I just figured I was burning out with the family/work ratio balance. Well, about 3 months ago, it hit me. Hit me like a ton of bricks. I was having a manic episode which lasted for about a week then I crashed. When I crashed, I crashed hard. I had feelings I have never experienced before. I was not rational thinking at my job which required to take a LOA to get better. I had a melt down at my job. I was having a one track way of thinking and thought everyone else was wrong. Then, the depression. Crying over everything, hating my life, myself, wanting to die. If it were not for my wife and kids, I'd be dead now. I went to get checked out. I was just, last week, diagnosed bipolar. The feeling you are having is, in my opinion, part of your crash. Hang in there. It will pass. Seek help if needed but please, hang in there. Remember, you can do this. You can and will smile again.

Thank you for your helpful replies! Yes i think its the crash but i cant stand how long it takes to feel better.
Im doing my best to ignore the dark thoughts but decided to make an app for today with pdoc anyway
Thanks again! The good starts out so good until you are totally losing it and end up in the hospital again