[earthangel1]

I am a 21 yr old gay male. I'm 130lbs and I'm losing weight quickly. I weighed 140 just over a month ago. I have an appetite to eat but eating just feels disgusting. I literally think it's gross, Today I've eaten a plum and a few rice crackers this morning. I am bipolar and I am going through a depressive phase. I keep looking at my stomach constantly and it makes me want to cry. I smoke a pack of cigarettes a day to make myself skinnier and I avoid driving anywhere where there's restaurants. I was doing fine, but now I'm so low on energy and I keep sleeping all the time. It's harder to walk and I just started a job at Macy's and it's interfering with my job. I want to eat but I can't push myself to start eating. It's like a chore, even when I'm hungry. I feel like crying constantly and I haven't told anyone close to me, not my family or friends, One of my friends keeps questioning me about my eating and keeps bringing over eggs and cheese and other foods and tells me to eat them. I really need help but I can't make myself eat. Help me.

[~Christina]

I have Anorexia.. Its a hell of a battle . Best advice I can give is find a Therapist that deals with eating disorders.

One thing I force myself to do is .. Drink an Ensure daily.

Im sorry your fighting this monster

[earthangel1]

Thank you. It's hell. My mom told me last time I visited her, " it looks like you're packing on pounds." She says things like that to me. I feel like it's to hurt me.

Hello bpenniman: Unfortunately we here on PC cannot help you. We can provide support & occasionally some useful advice. But you must help yourself! From what you wrote it does definitely sound as though you've developed an eating disorder. But, whatever it is that is going on with you, you need to seek treatment as soon as possible... right away would be perfect!

You can begin by seeing a general practice doctor, a psychiatrist, or other medical professional. A therapist is another option. But, from what you wrote, I would suggest that the therapist should come later. First you should get in to see a physician.

here are programs that specialize in treating eating disorders. (One I'm familiar with is the Emily Foundation.) If there is an eating disorders program near where you live, you could also contact them. But, however you go about it, please seek treatment as soon as possible. The sooner you begin to address this problem, the easier it is going to be to heal from it. My best wishes to you!

[Victoria'smom]

My eating disorder goes crazy when I'm in a mood swing. If you can 16 onces of v8 blend, a go gurt and a cheese plus a vitamin. Keep hydrated!