Does anone see this link in their bippolar? When I'm depressed all i want to do is die and when I'm manic its like i'm thumbing my nose at death saying you haven't got me yet as I crawl out wreckage of the car I rolled whilst going 20 kms over the speed limit, all those other risk taking behaviuors they list.
So depression = i want to die
Mania = you can't touch me, you bastard death.

[~Christina]

That kind of thinking is very common for people who have Bipolar.

[tipper1492]

Being reckless to that degree could get you, are someone else, killed. You don't want that huh?

[Blitter2014]

Absolutely agree Bipolarartist.

Depression is wanting to die as a means of escape
Mania is tempting fate in order to prove that you are alive and thumbing your nose at death

Originally Posted by tipper1492

Being reckless to that degree could get you, are someone else, killed. You don't want that huh?

I haven't killed anyone in 30 years of driving, but I've alwys lived more in the bush than in suburban areas.

[wiretwister]

for years I believed I was God's chosen messenger and had no fear of death at all,,I have also been so engulfed by depression that I tried to end it all. Not sure if that's what you meant but it's my story....

But why is this thinking so common among Bipolar. I was even like this as achild. I'd climb up on the roof and jump off and by some miracle i never broke anything.

Originally Posted by wiretwister

for years I believed I was God's chosen messenger and had no fear of death at all,,I have also been so engulfed by depression that I tried to end it all. Not sure if that's what you meant but it's my story....

Yes thats exactly what I mean Thank you

[Becoming]

That's exactly it. That sounds like Bipolar I. It has very high mania. Like major mania. What you described: the feeling invincible sort of.

I have Bipolar II. Hypomania...so very minor. When that hits, it's insane happiness, rushing thoughts, but I don't really tempt fate or think I am invincible. I have more periods of depression than anything else usually.

This forum is really good for these questions and support. I'm new and never found anything like it so far. We're all struggling with something (many of us Bipolar) and are here to help each other. Yes, it sounds like Bipolar without a doubt, but you'll get through it. It's possible! =)

[Pikku Myy]

Yes, Bipolarartist... I feel like this. Therefore, important for me to keep try and not get to the extremes. At least I am learning to check myself into observation if I get S. Balanced me wants to live and be happy

[tipper1492]

Sorry I (dumb) misunderstood!

[unicornlady]

That link is totally there for me. On the one side, hours crying, fearing and wanting death at the same time. On the other side, feeling invincible - once I sat in the middle of a street at night time and laughed as cars swerved around me.

[wing]

The psychosis of BP 1 is scary. I keep a lid on it by watching for an increase in my usual level of paranoia. If I get squirrely, I ask for an increase in my antipsychotic. Risk-taking can kill us as easily as depression, just a different way to do it.

[Disorder7]

Originally Posted by Bipolarartist

But why is this thinking so common among Bipolar. I was even like this as achild. I'd climb up on the roof and jump off and by some miracle i never broke anything.

I used to do the same thing as a child. I'd jump off roofs and out of windows for fun. Luckily I never broke anything.

In October, I too walked away from a truck I totaled.

We are risk takers, for sure.