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Dec 17, 2014, 02:20 AM
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This is pretty much a I'm sick of it all and p#!$ on you world post. I've been going on a bad downward spiral for about a month now. It all started when my job voluntold me to go to weekday graveyard shifts, which threw my meds all out of whack. Then my wife and I get into a fight over my monetary indiscretions, and she tells me she'll forgive me this time but she can't do it again. REALLY!!! REALLY!!! Well f*#& you and the w#@$* you came from. I'm tired of everyone treating me like an evil, malicious person instead of someone who is sick. Now throw in the holidays , which I loathe, and my pdoc sending me a letter saying he can't see me cause I have to keep rescheduling my appts cause of work. Plus he would see me maybe once every six months. Eh, screw you too you pompous, arrogant Jack ***! So at this point I'm ready to give these people what they want no more me. One less sicko in the world right?!?
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Dec 17, 2014, 02:31 AM
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I am 50, and for the past 3 years haven't been in control of my own money because of the impulse problem with this disorder. I have a Representative Payee. Social Security doesn't let me handle my own money. I get personal spending money. I am on an allowance because of this illness basically. And while we laugh sometimes at the antics we pull - it can be hell and cause serious problems. your having a very bad day true - but I only see my psychiatrist once a year - BY CHOICE. I saw my psychologist/counselor weekly for 5 years, but I don't need any more talk therapy right now.
Your allowed to feel frustrated and at the end of your rope. More rope will appear tomorrow. Frankly, I am glad someone else is handling my money for me now cause they always pay my bills on time, and I know that I will get my food money, and I know how much it will be.  I like only seeing my shrink once a year. I am on good meds that are working - if that changes, i will call. I see her nurse every 3 months to tell her all is fine, and we carry on. It is NICE not having to frigging tell every single detail of everything they should scrutinize. I am a nice and good person and I don't always want to have to frigging explain myself. You are doing well enough in the shrinks eyes that she can see you less and still medicate you, that is good. Get a counselor to see like monthly to talk about stuff to. Maybe one for you both, and have your wife do the bills for a bit. release some control as a means of giving yourself less stress. The world needs us 'sickos'. One less you is not what they want. Come cuss some more if you need to. For all we know, you might be choosing the exact right time and place to vent. Best of luck to us all.
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Dec 17, 2014, 02:55 AM
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The problem with seeing my pdoc once every 6 months or so is my meds aren't stable. I don't even talk to his office unless I call. My checks are direct deposited and my wife handles the money. We are always behind on our bills, have cheap nasty food, and barely enough money left for gas to get to work. She has a nice new truck though....b!$#@.
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Dec 17, 2014, 11:04 AM
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We make the world fun. I think that if anything in your life is going to change that you need a good therapist and a couple'small therapist.
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Dec 17, 2014, 12:57 PM
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It does get better. Things get Damn right annoying at times. But if you push through, a better day will come. You will adjust to the scrappy schedule. Find a new pdoc. Obviously you don't need some jerk that doesn't have time for you anyhow.
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Dec 17, 2014, 02:19 PM
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ummmm
hey man ........nightshift work i understand u are no up in the day time (naturally i am up at night ) u can get a new doctor .........i got one that sees me at 3:30 / 4 pm and even one place will see me at 7 pm it is just matter of spending the time to look for them ..........as for ppl treating u like a evil bastard it still happens to me i get profiled for the way i look ....i even had a cop make a isis joke about me (i almost slugged him in the face for it) the tactic i took was bite me ..........u got a problem with me hit me or move i do not care witch but i got something to get done and i am doing it |
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Dec 17, 2014, 10:03 PM
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I'm just so frustrated and aggravated right now, and not having anyone to talk to just compounds the issue. I know I have people on here but I mean someone either face to face or even over the phone would help.
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Dec 17, 2014, 10:59 PM
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u got us man
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