I can deal with the mood swings, I've been having them all my life. They're "normal" to me. What messes my head up the most is that delusional bipolar thinking. It creeps up on me, getting me believing that there is nothing wrong to begin with, then it all goes south from there.

For instance, this last time I was under the delusion that my meds were working because I was taking them everyday. I was on top and in control even though obviously I wasn't. I was paranoid, spending money, indulging in manic behavior. Now I'm about divorced, broke, and almost homeless shunned by all my friends. I can at least say today I'm off that crazy train- I think.

What or where has your best bipolar thinking gotten you? Has the damage been repaired? Thoughts?

[~Christina]

I'm sorry your in a mess. I hope you can salvage your marriage.

This is the exact reason I chart my moods and if I'm acting a tad "off" my husband checks to see if I am indeed charting ( another reason I just use pen and paper). If I am not he will bring it to my attention.

Every single day I do a self check and make sure all my fluids are topped off,so to speak.

My Husband will step in and bring to my attention if I am looking like I am heading towards possible trouble. Plus I see my T weekly.

I hope your marriage can be mended and you can find ways to keep yourself in check and get help before you come off the rails in the future.