My story..... i need help

Hi all

My name is mina : a male Egyptian

10 years ago i know something wrong went with my brain i had have OCD the pure type....it was annoying one but at the same time the anxiety was making me a very effective person ( i don't know how) i was very social because i was afraid to be alone......iwas only taking anafranil (self medication ) i was very smart in studing that i graduated with A, and i was preparing for CPA (a professional certeficate and i was the cleverest one in my class).....but it come to a time when i couldn't escape my thoughts.,,,they were really annoying me.....i started to feel strongly bad and alot of quilt .... that what i went to a psych and gave me favrin (fluvoxmine) and that when IT ALL STARTED four years ago

From the first pill the OCD Gone but i crushed into something bad.... i don't know what it was.... i felt like my mind is lost.....i am no longer that clever energetic effective person.....i also cruched into the worst depressive episode i have ever had (although the OCD is gone) i was completely transformed .... not that highly effective person that used to be...i TOOK anitdepressants but with little help

that when it came to a time when i took SNRI.... and i switched highly manic .... i started to laugh out of nothing .... that when i knew i have bipolar disorder

i was going to be hospitalized but i refused to.. because i was caring for my Job

I decided to take it on my own out of hospital to hold my Job and avoid the stigma

i was put on rispridone lithium and depakine thats when i started to feel better and stated to get my mind again about one and half year ago but the depression didn't went away

since october we started lamictal...i was very allergic to it that it took me all this period only to reach 100 MG (just last week) .... but i was feeling its effect from 12.5 mg..... no i can say i am no longer depressed (as a mood)

But i feel i can't study... something wrong went with my brain....i do my work and get barely (meet expectations thats enough for me holding my Job but as long as i couldn't study and get exceeded expectations...i can't get promoted)

Now.... what about this lazy mind how can i fix it......is there is a chance i have a mild form of ADD

thanks and regards

Welcome to pc! Sometimes medications can affect how we think. Some people get foggy brains on different medications. Some people are able to accept that in order to feel stable, while others find the side effects intolerable and vote to try different meds. It's really up to you to decide which path you want to take. Also, it may only be temporary. It could take a few months to adjust to a med, especially lamictal. Good luck! I hope you find peace.

Lamictal requires allot of time.

Hi Mina! Welcome. We are here to offer support and none of us can diagnose you or tell you one way or the other. You must consult a mental health professional for such things.

I just want to say is that your story touched me and I really feel for you, and all I can say is hang in there and keep searching for the answers you seek. Good luck!