[czarina1984]

I am just coming off a manic swing and my doctors changing all my meds. With the changes and some problems with lithium toxicity, I'm feeling exhausted and really sick of fighting. My support people know that my meds have gotten mostly straightened out now and have figured that since the crisis is over that I am ok with handling myself again alone. I needed so much support the last few months that I want this to be over as much as they do. But for the last 2 weeks all I feel is that I need to pretend to be ok to keep them. So I pretend to be ok and make up stories to tell but I feel like I have nothing in common with anyone. My lack of motivation has turned into not bothering with anything. I know that it is probably just post-manic crashing and I am talking to my pdoc on Fri.

[Blitter2014]

Coming down off a manic swing is always going to bum you out. I hate coming down, it is so fun to have so much energy and zest for life that you wish you could stay up forever - well I sure do. But coming down is a reality of Bipolar as you well know.

Honestly, your going to put a lot of pressure on yourself if you keep pretending everything is ok. People, especially loved ones are going to see right through it, and are going to be worried that you cannot see what they are seeing, which will worry them even more. It sounds like you have a really caring support network, and that you are slowly stabilizing on your meds. Just keep going. Rely on your support network til you get stable, that is what they are there for, and I am sure that is what they want for you. Be kind to yourself and be ok with who you are and where you are at. Its not your fault you are not in a good place, and you are trying and see the need to improve, so you are doing well and aware of where you are at. Keep going, your doing well, tell your Pdoc everything that is going on, and let your support network know how much you appreciate them. I am sure they will stay by your side as long as it takes