[Eva_Star]

God. I don't know how my husband stands me. Seriously. I'm so needy that I make myself sick. My husband was just sitting there...reading a book and I couldn't stop myself from obsessing that something was wrong...

"Do you love me?"
"Are you mad?"
"Did I do something wrong?"
"Are you sure you aren't mad at me?"
"Why do you love me?"
"How can you possibly love me?"
"I can tell you are mad...I must have done something."
"Why won't you just tell me what I did wrong?"
"I hate it when you just won't tell me."

and so on and so on and so on. It's like I just can't turn it off...don't know if this is a bipolar symptom or my obsessive stuff...either way, I'm messed up. I would divorce me if I was him. We have this thing where we decided a long time ago, that when I'm acting like a jackass like this, he can look at me and just say, "It's just your brain. It's ok. It's just your brain." and then I know that he really is listening, he's not mad, he loves me...it's just me telling me things again. He finally said this...and then sighed this exhausted sigh.

Sometimes...I just hate myself.

[Hexagram]

Your husband obviously does love you, and wisely dismisses your insecurities as symptoms of a disease which you can't control... you should try to follow his example. Try to cut yourself some slack.

Sounds like an episode of paranoid insecurities. Take a deep breath and realize that your head is playing tricks on you to escape the delusion. Are you in therapy sweety?

[avlady]

I do the same thing sometimes i think my husband is ignoring me but in reality he's just busy or tired from work. he does the same thing he says maybe you're not feeling well right now is there something you need to say? then it all goes away. i do not like it when he leaves the room sometimes i love him so much i can't stand to be without him even for a short time after he gets home from work. he works alot so he isn't home much during the day, so when he does get home i'm all needy and have to give him time to relax and unwind. i am just so happy to see him when he gets home it is such a relief.

[Eva_Star]

I'm not in therapy right now. We can't afford it. I know I need it and it's like I'm making my husband my therapist which is a role he definitely doesn't want. lol

Avlady, I get these burst of love for my husband that are overwhelming...but I can also get burst of anger toward him, like he's the cause of all my problems. I know that isn't rational but it's there. I feel so guilty when I think like that.

I definitely "know" he loves me. We've been together 19 years. But just my stupid brain, over and over, saying that he's going to leave someday, that it will all just be too much to take...and he will just up and leave me. Or that he will stay forever and being with me will have ruined his life. Or that he only loves me because he gets to be in control since I'm such a screw up.

Totally irrational...I know.

[~Christina]

I do that, pressured speech and inability to just shut up and believe my husband when he tells me he loves me and hes not going anywhere etc.

I do think it is a part Bipolar, my T agrees.

Bipolar Lies it makes us doubt practically everything.

Yeah I often talk about if I was him I would divorce myself , Hubby always gets a laugh outta that one